Alpha Lord

Moony

Moony's P.O.V

We stepped out the fireplace, well Siri did because he basically was carrying my entire weight. 

I'm a werewolf. I can't protect a kid. I love him so much. He's a little ball of adorbleness and the perfect mix of Lily and James and he had to go and choose the worst person ever to rely on. I'll just put him in danger. I will hurt him.

"Moons?"

I can kill him. I'm a monster and the kid chose me. He is so innocent he doesn't even know what I am. He can't trust me he just can't. I only know how to hurt people and I love him too much. I should probably stay away from him. They don't need a monster arou...

"Love?"

Around their child.

"Darling"

I felt my face lifted up from where I was engrossed in the little spot on the rug. His hand was firm but gentle, not letting me get back to my admiration of the rug so I got lost in the grey of his eyes instead, letting it drown out everything else.

"Sweetheart, you're not a monster."

How can he say it so surely? How can he sound so believable when he knows it's not true?

"No Remus, you need to come out of your head love. I know that's what people made you believe in the past and I am so fucking sorry that I was one of those people at one point but I can tell you this for a fact. It's not true. None of it is true. You're here now and you're so so gorgeous. Monsters aren't beautiful, Remus. You're beautiful inside and out so there is no way that you are a monster and Harry knows that. Children are pure, they speak nothing but the truth so you must believe it. He feels very safe around you. Did you hear what he said?"

I don't know how we ended up on the floor but he had loosened his hold on my jaw and now my head was buried in his chest and I was basically sitting in his lap but I didn't care at this point. His arms were comfortable and I can't think of anything else.

"He said 'Moony, help me.' He trusted you enough to ask you for help and that's such a beautiful thing. To have a child trust you wholly and truly."

"He shouldn't trust me. There is so much better choices than me. I can't protect him."

"You can love. I know you will. You love that kid with your everything and I know if you need to kill or die for him you will without question. He couldn't have chosen a better person."

He held me for a few more minutes and we just enjoyed the silence and company.

"Do you feel up to going back by Lily and James or would you rather stay here? I'm sure they'll understand."

"Let's go back. You did promise that we'll be back to celebrate."

"Oh yeah, I totally forgot about that. What should we carry?"

"We can make dessert. I want something sweet to eat."

"Aww. Okay, they'd love that and we did buy those pie crusts. I think they'd want to make it with us though so let's carry it there. We can also carry some butterbeer. We have some right?"

"Yeah, we have some in the kitchen."

"Ok, then it's settled."

"I don't want to get up."

"We can cuddle tonight, love. I promise. Let's not keep Prongslet waiting. I bet he never had pie before."