I Love... You? LxLight (boyxboy)

Part 4

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Lights P.O.V.
When we went down to our computers, speechless, I thought to myself that he must be going through something maybe? That damned Ryuuzaki. Why cant he just understand I am not Kira? Why cant he not just let that fact sink in?

Am I not trustworthy enough? Should I try harder? What should I even do?

Ls P.O.V.
I don't like the fact he's not saying anything now that we've reached our destination. Did I say something wrong? No, I said the truth. Is he plotting something now? Maybe I should just observe him for a while.

At that moment I removed my thumb away from my mouth and placed my right hand on the mouse when he placed his three fingers on it and delicately rubbed them against my skin.

I hastily felt warmth appearing on my cheeks and, confused, looked over at him.

All I saw was an innocent smile on his, half turned towards me, face. What was he doing? Didn't I state it clear I didn't want this? But now my blush was revealing my emotions and he knew I, secretly, enjoyed it.

I looked over at the hand and shook the fingers off, and continued working on my computer. I don't understand what was he playing at? Was he teasing me?

From the corner of my eye, I saw him look around the room, in which nobody was present except for Aizawa and Matsuda, who were chatting away at their computers further away.

Raito suddenly leaned in closer to my ear and whispered, "Would you care to spend the night with me? We could have pretty much fun since everybody's going out today to celebrate Aizawa's birthday. I know you can always come up with excuses,"

I blushed even harder and looked over at him once again and mumbled angrily, "Why are you doing this?"

He shot a 'who me?' look, and said, "What do you mean Ryuuzaki? Don't you like sweet offers?" And gave me a sly smile. This was becoming ridiculous so I stated to everyone present, "Going to the bathroom," and tugged Light with me by the chains to leave the room, and we both entered the empty hallway, where I was about to say, "I told you I dont want to do th-"

He interrupted me with a kiss, and began ruffling my hair with one hand, and petting my cheek with the other.

He surprised me very much but I quickly pushed him back, even though I was fighting with myself not to.

He looked at me, again, with that sly grin on his face. I shot him a dark look and said, "Are you doing this on purpose to take me away from the thought of you being Kira?"

He hesitated for a while, and after he regained his smile, he said, "Ryuuzaki," he grabbed my shoulders, "I am not Kira, and I am gonna say this until the day you'll finally believe me," "the day I'll die probably," I hastily mumbled under my breathe, and he asked, "What?"

But I merely answered "Nothing.. and how can I not believe you are Kira? There's too many 'coincidences' around you, Yagami-kun! It's just not right!" I scowled at his face while he brought his index finger towards my chin and slightly lifted it upwards.

He then said, "It's a pity you have a diffrent sense of justice," the minute he said that he quickly hid the finger, pulled a straight face and said again, "Sorry, just dont act as if youre the only one suffering this," and, while dragging me, left and sat down at his computer and so did I.

Lights P.O.V.
Its this Death Note. It splits my personalities and I dont enjoy it anymore. Once I will stupidly cry over that damned Ryuuzaki, and other I feel like manipulating him to love me just to kill him like a bug in the end. I hate this. Why cant I feel one? Why does this change so swiftly?

All I want right now is peace but that damned guy wont leave me alone even for a few seconds. I suddenly uncontrollably grasped at my head and smashed it against the keyboard.

I cant do this anymore, its literally killing me. In the distance I heard Ryuuzaki's voice asking whats wrong. I replied with a quick, "I'm fine, its okay," but I'm not fine. Nothings fine. Sometimes I wonder am I really chosen for this killing spree but then I remind myself that someone has to do it. Someone has to sacrifice themselves for this job.

I felt myself drifting off, but the last thing I saw was Ryuuzaki's worried face and thats when I wondered, do I really want to see that idiots worried face again?

*2 hours later*

I woke up, on my bed, with.. Ryuuzaki being asleep? He was sitting on the chair beside me again. I've never seen him asleep before and to be honest, he looks very calm, as if nothing can bother him. I stared at him for a while and silently smiled to myself. Do I really love this idiot?

I lay on the bed for the next few moments, staring at the ceiling, my hands underneath my head and thinking again, is this what love really feels like? If it does then I am not sure myself if I want to cling to this feeling much longer or if I want it to die away...

I looked once again at Ryuuzaki, and thought to myself, he must've really beat himself to be sitting there beside me all those nights, being bored and probably not sleeping and doing nothing. Is this what caring is?

I looked over, again, at Ryuuzaki and noticed that he was staring at me, with his dull expression. When I smiled at him, he turned his eyes away from my face, and looked at the ceiling.

I couldnt take the fact that he was so easily pushing me away, so I got out of bed, sat down on his lap, my legs stretched out so my whole body was facing him.

He tried to protest, but I firmly sat on his lap and held his hands with mine. He gave me a puzzled look and stayed silent.

I whispered in his ear, "I love you and even though you might dismiss my love because of your uncertainties of me being Kira, I will still protest that I am not and will show affection to you."

I spoke a bit louder now, "Remember when you asked me what love was Ryuuzaki? I didnt answer because I never experienced it before but now,"

I grinned at him, "But now I have and I can tell you that love is when you really care about someone without thinking which is what you are doing to me. Its when you, too, hate when a person is pushing you away even though youre lusting so bad for that him,"

"So Ryuuzaki will you finally love me like you did at the start?"