When Eva and Bucky met, sparks flew. Bucky instantly knew Eva was the one he wanted to marry. But, like everyone else in the world, Eva has a secret.
What will happen when she our lives Bucky? Or will she? Will they have a long and happy life? Read...
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~One month later~
I've been home for about a month. It's honestly felt longer because I have no one to come home to now. I got him a headstone next to Isabelle, it was finished yesterday. I cried like a baby when I saw it.
Stark helped me get in touch with a lawyer so I could deal with James' will. There's a bank account that I only have access for but I'm not touching it unless necessary.
Steve has written me once. They're in the process of taking down Schmidt's last site. I wanted to join but I wouldn't even know where that is, so I decided against it.
Right now, I'm sitting on my couch, combing through James' things. There's a letter I have yet to read from him and Steve, which I find weird because I thought I had read everything from James. This one was sent yesterday, when Steve had written once again.
I peel open the paper, sighing as I see his messy handwriting.
Sunflower,
If you're reading this, it means I'm no longer with you and for that, I am sorry. I never wanted to leave you. You're my true love and my best friend (don't tell Steve I said that). Promise me you will move on and live a happy life. Figure out where you came from. I want you to live. Hopefully, one day, we will see each other again.
I love you, Forever and always, Jamie
I sob into my hand. This is the last letter I'll ever read from him. I can hear him saying these words and that makes it hurt so much more. I'm never going to hear his voice again... hear him say I love you.
Life feels hopeless now. What do I have to live for? I have nothing left. I don't even know if I want to figure out who I am. What would be the point? Since no one has come after me, that means they clearly don't want me in their lives so there really is no point in finding them.
The tears eventually stop and I wipe my face before picking up Steve's letter. As I peel the paper open, I hear my phone ringing.
"Hello?" I answer.
"Evie?" I immediately recognize Peggy's voice.
"Peggy? What's going on?" I ask.
"Um... it's Steve. His plane went down, over the water." My mind goes blank. I've lost everyone now. My entire family.
"When?" I ask.
"This morning. Stark is putting together a team to search for him." A tear slips down my cheek. Fuck!
"I'll be there tonight." I hang up before she can continue, knowing I'll starting crying over the phone if I didn't. I make it to my couch before I start full on crying. His letter sits on the coffee table and I reach for it with a shaky hand.
Evie,
By the time you get this, we will be taking down Schmidt's last compound. I'm hoping we can capture him but I'm not sure. Anyways... there's some things I need to tell you. I don't know if I'll survive this so if I don't, I need to get this off my chest. If I do survive this then well... I guess you're free to kick my ass.
I fell in love with you, Evie. I don't expect you to feel the same and I never will. But I needed to tell you. You can kick my ass if I make it home but please don't hate me. I can't help my feelings but I swear I will never act on them.
If I don't come back, don't forget about me. You are an amazing person, Evie.
Yours, Steve
I sob even harder once I finish reading the letter. A part of me knew he had feelings for me. I could see it in his eyes but I never wanted to admit it. He knows I'll never feel the same. I can't. James is the love of my life and that will never change.
After sobbing for what felt like hours, I wipe my face and go change into something more comfortable so I can head to the base. I pray we find his ship. He deserves a burial, not to be frozen and forgotten about.
I strap a backpack on then turn out the lights before walking outside of my house. As soon as I lock my door, I take off. It'll take me 3 hours to get there.
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I land with a loud thud, scaring the men around me. "Ice sickle!" Someone screams. When I turn around, Dugan is walking towards me. He captures me in a tight hug, twirling me around.
"Hi Dugan." I can't help but giggle as the big brute hugs me.
"How are you doing?" He asks as he sets me down.
"I'm ok... I'm here to help Stark look for Steve." The smile on his face falters.
"He was a good man. Wouldn't let any of us go with him... I'm sorry Eva." He sighs.
"It's ok, Dugan. Will you be joining us?"
"No... Philips won't let us." I simply nod, understanding why they aren't allowed. Before I can actually respond, Philips yells for Dugan. He gives me another hug before walking off.
Now to find Stark and Peggy.
I enter the compound, immediately hearing Stark yell something at some poor soul. He isn't one to show emotion but I know he liked Steve, so I'm sure he's taking this hard. I also know Peggy is too. Steve may have been in love with me but he had feelings for Peggy.
"Stark." He turns at the sound of my voice, eyes red and face blotchy.
"Hey kid." He sighs and automatically hugs me. "You're here to join the search?" He asks.
"I am... if that's ok."
"Always. We're leaving tonight. Everything is almost set up." He sighs heavily, looking anywhere but my face.
"Stark, you know it's ok to show emotion, right?" I give him a small smile.
"I'm fine, Eva... I'll be fine." Deciding not to push him, I just hug him again.
"It's ok to not be ok." He pulls back, kissing my cheek as he does.
