a bedtime story- jeongsung

hi sweetheart..

                                                                                                            Jeongin pov.

After we told the rest about us, everything was perfectly fine.
We're happy.. spent more time with each other and just got to know each other more.
Well, and then today came.

"What do you mean you have to leave?", I ask him.
"I'm a producer, darling.. I have to go abroad sometimes"
"And for how long?"
"I don't know yet"
"You don't know?"
"No I don't fucking know"
"Why are you mad at me now huh? I'm not the one who's leaving you"
"What are you saying? I'm not leaving you!"

"Who's leaving who?", Seungmin asks, who just walked into our room.
"Out!", Jisung and I yell.
"Jeez sorry for asking", Seungmin says sarcastically, then he leaves.

"I don't want you to leave"
"I don't have a choice Innie"
"But-"
"Look sweetie.. I know how you're feeling, I also don't wanna leave, but I have to. I promise I'll write you every day, okay?"
"But I'll miss you.."
"I'll miss you too my baby"

Then he hugs me and we stay silent for a few minutes.

...

Jisung left that day, just a few hours after he told me he eventually has to leave.
I obviously cried.. we just got together and now he has to leave?
And for how long?
We both don't know.

...

There's a knock on my door and Minho comes in.

"Hey Innie.. you wanna come to the café with me?"
"No thanks"
"Look.. I know you miss Ji but you can't stay here the whole time he's away, you need to go out"
"But he just left.. give me some time"
"It's been two weeks Innie"

Two weeks? Wow really?
I didn't even notice that so much time already went by.

"Go take a shower and come downstairs then", Min says and then leaves the room.

I do as he said and walk downstairs then where he's already waiting for me.
Minho drives us to the café and we start to work.. and I'm really glad that he took me here.
It's a good distraction and I'm able to talk to Evelyn today.
I serve people and wait for her.. but she doesn't show up.
Maybe she's sick?

The next few days she also doesn't show up and I'm really worried about her.
And two days later someone comes in, a tall woman, looking for someone.

"Hello, I'm looking for a Jeongin", she greets me.
"That's me.. hello.. how can I help you?"
"Ah good, let's sit down, okay?"

I nod and we sit down at a table.
I look at her, a little confused because I don't really know why she's here.

"So um.. I'm a nurse at the hospital near here.. Evelyn Brooks was a patient there.."
"She.. she was?"
"She died this morning.. I'm really sorry"

I feel tears running down my face.
Evelyn and dead? How this hurts.. I've known her for so long and now she's dead.
Minho told me she was here when I wasn't.. you know, because I was sad with the Jisung situation.
And now when I'm back.. Evelyn's not here anymore.
For forever.
She was one of my best friends, someone who I could tell everything.
And now I lost her.

"I'm really sorry for your loss.. but I don't have much time right now. I just came here to inform you and give you the letter she wrote for you", the nurse says, then she hands me the letter and leaves.

Minho, who just came back from his break sees me and walks to me.

"Oh god Innie.. what happened? Why are you crying luv?"
"She's dead..", I whisper.
"Who.. who is dead?"
"Evelyn.. I lost her", I say and cry more.

Minho takes me in his arms and just hugs me for a while.
He lets me cry and holds me.
A few minutes later, he sends me home so I can calm down.
I make my way home, not to Jisungs house where I stayed the last few weeks, to my house.

After I sat down, I take the letter out and start to read.

Hi sweetheart,
it's me Evelyn. When you read this letter, I'm already gone.
Before I continue, please always remember that it's not your fault.
A few months ago, I think five, the doctor told me that I have cancer.
He also told me that it's too late for any treatment, so I didn't start with anything.
I knew you'd be worried every day, so I didn't tell you.
Jeongin, I'm really happy that we met.
I'm an old lady without any friends or family, but after we met I had a friend.
Our daily conversations made me feel happy and made my last months liveable.
Liveable as in not worrying about the death, just living in the moment.
My dearest friend, I hope you'll live a happy life with a good family.
That guy seems really nice, so get your man.
Don't be too sad, I'll watch you from above and protect you from there.
On my bank account is some money left.
Therefore that I don't have have a family, I decided to leave you everything on there.
I already told my bank.
I love you my dearest friend, live a happy and good life.
You deserve it.
Your friend, Evelyn.

I throw the letter on the ground and continue crying.
I'm so happy that I was able to meet here, to be her friend.
But I wasn't ready for this, not ready for her leaving.
But honestly, you're never ready for that moment.
I'm just mad at myself that I stayed home those two weeks, I couldn't even tell Evelyn a proper goodbye.
Couldn't tell her that I got married.
Now I'm missing two people, not knowing when I'm seeing them again.
For Jisung, maybe in some days, weeks or months.
For Evelyn, up there in heaven.

"I'm gonna miss you Evelyn, thank you for everything", I whisper.