a bedtime story- jeongsung

feeling sad

                                                                                                              Jeongin pov.

I wish somebody would've told me sooner that I'm able to get pregnant so I could've planned when I want it to happen.
Definitely not right now because the only thing I'm allowed to do is staying at home.
No one lets me outside anymore, well at least not alone.
It's like they've never seen someone pregnant nor have heard that it's okay to go out for pregnant people.

Currently I'm five months pregnant and laying in bed.
Until now my pregnancy is rather bad than good.
I constantly throw up, feel tired, am grumpy and snappy and just sad.
Today I'm feeling more fat and sadder than ever, my mood is definitely not good.

I stand up and walk into the kitchen where I meet Changbin hyung.
He looks at me, notices that I cried and stands up to hug me.

"Oh what's wrong Innie?", he asks worriedly.
"I.. I want Ji.. where is he?"
"He's grocery shopping with his brother and Chan.. is it that bad? I'm here and Lix is here too"
"And.. where are Jinnie and Minnie?"
"They're at the café"
"Then I want Lix.. but can you call Ji?"
"Of course Innie"

Changbin calls for Lix to come into the kitchen.
As Lix walks inside, Changbin explains the situation.
Then Lix takes me with him into the living room and we cuddle a little.
I hear Binnie calling Ji, but it sounds like it'll take longer because they're in a traffic jam.
I don't know when but eventually I fall asleep.

When I wake up, I'm still on the couch but Lix isn't next to me anymore.
I sit up and see him and Minnie playing video games.

"Hey luv, did you sleep well?", Channie asks me, who just comes from the kitchen.
"Mhm.. where's Ji?"
"In the kitchen.. he's helping Minho with dinner. Should I get him for you?"
"If he's busy, you don't have to.. but can I have some medicine? My head hurts.."
"Of course luv"

Chan walks away to go get the medicine.
Meanwhile I watch the game between Minnie and Lix.
Just a few minutes later, Channie is back with the medicine and a glass of water.
I thank him and take both.

Eventually I feel two arms wrapped around my neck and a soft kiss placed on it.

"Hey darling.. how are you feeling?", Jisung asks.
"I'm alright.. my head just hurts"
"Binnie told me that you cried earlier.. did something happen?"
"I couldn't find you.. and I feel fat.. do you think I'm fat?", I ask while I look up at him.
"Honey you're pregnant.. this is normal"
"So you're saying I'm fat?"
"You're carrying two children inside you, two new lifes get created in you right now. Of course they need more room and make you bigger"
"I feel ugly Ji.."
"You're not ugly sweetheart, you're really beautiful. I mean you're always beautiful but this pregnancy makes you shine"
"Mhm.."
"He's right Innie, you look beautiful. Always", Lix throws in, who apparently listened to our conversation.
"Thank you..", I answer.

Then Chan calls us because dinner is ready.
We all sit down but I don't feel like I want to eat anything right now.
Ji notices that and whispers that I need to eat, you know for us three.
So I start to eat because I know he's right.

After dinner we walk into our bedroom and get ready for bed.
I put my pyjamas on and lay down on our bed, still feeling sad.
Jisung joins me and looks at me.

"Darling, come here?"
"I'm already laying as close as I can next to you. I can't get closer because of my belly", I snap at him.

He chuckles and kisses me.
I kiss him back and feel him smiling into the kiss.

He then trails down my body with his lips and kisses.

"What are you doing Ji?"
"Gonna make you feel good sweetie.."