Chapter 9: Replaceable

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The rest of the days of my life without him, it doesn't seem to be pretty bad at all.

Yeah, I've made up my mind. I gave him a second chance and never the third one, even if he wanted me back. I'm not that stupid.

I went out with Amelia the next day, to just forget about Noah.

God, but yeah, I'm jealous of her, taking away my love. I mean, Noah didn't love me from the start. He loves Amelia, I'm just her replacement. I write stories, and poems, and love the songs he loves as well, same vibe, and the same hobby, I'm the clone of her.

Well, I love her too. I don't know, it's weird. Complex feelings I have for her just couldn't fade. I'm jealous and I admire and I love her.

She's still my friend anyway. We couldn't be together, I mean we can't. My mind and my body don't let me do this.

"Jane?"
Her sweet voice called me back from my thoughts.

I looked at her eyes and smiled. Yeah, I know the reason why Noah would love her more than me. She's beautiful, she looks kind, and she gives him butterflies.

"You like this bracelet?" she asked.
"Yeah, but it would look better on you."

In my previous relationship, before Noah, I got replaced too. Why am I so replaceable? Can I find someone that truly loves me not because of someone else?

I guess I know why.
I won't even love myself if I'm someone else.

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