Can't Take Me Eyes Off Of You. (Guy+Guy Love Story)

Chapter 11

Xavier's Pov.

I arrived home right after and collapsed onto my bed. 

Fuck school, I hated being there anyways.

Evan was the only one that was keeping me going to school.

Alex too, but now... I dont know.

I clenched my comforter and bit my lip.

My eyes closed and the only person I saw.

The person that I loved showed up.

Evan, why were you so confusing!

I felt like a teenage girl, more than a teenage guy.

My problems.

I felt the blanket getting wet.

I was crying.

"Why!" I exclaimed and sat up trying to wipe all the tears away.

I bet he threw out those flowers I gave him.

He'll probably marry Layla.

I should have told him about that. 

But...

More tears flooded my eyes. 

"I can't do this anymore." I huffed.

I got up and struggled over to my closet door.

I opened it up and looked at the little red box on the floor.

The red box was velvet and was smooth to the touch.

I grasped it and held it close to my chest.

So many memories with the box.

I laid the box down on my bed and kneed beside it.

I opened it up to reveal the razors all perfectly in order since the last time that I used them 2 years ago.

I blew on them lifting the dust into the air.

I cringed and picked one up.

I squished it in my hand and felt it nip at my skin.

"Why do I have you in my hand again. I swore i'd never do this again. But I just... I can't stand it." The razor cut my palm.

I looked at my phone and picked it up, laying the razor carefully back into the red velvet case.

It was intriguing to know that something so small can kill someone if they want it to.

I scrolled down to Evan and called him.

Ring, ring. 

Ring, ring.

He picked up the phone.

"Hey!" He said excitedly.

"Hi. I just needed to call you." I informed him.

"What's wrong?" He asked with concern.

"I'm going to die. I'm leaving. I can't stand being here anymore." I knew I was making a huge irrational decision, but I had to.

"Don't you dare." I heard him growl.

My eyes went wide and I clenched my jaw.

I heard him taking steps.

"I have to. It's not like you l-." I was cut off.

"Don't think like that Xavier. I love you. Don't EVER think different." He whispered.