Fallon

Chapter 4: Bluebird

"You wanna know a secret Kassandra Marie?"Lana laughed as i kicked.
"Let go of me Lana." She grabbed my hair and twisted so I couldn't move.
" You can wear better clothes, but that doesn't mean people will like you. Your nothing but a pathetic loser who shops at goodwill." Lana tightened her grip.
"I just wanna go home. Lana please.." I begged.
"You will always be nothing. No one will ever love you" she threw me to the ground cackling.
"Fucking weak" she snarled.
"GET OFF HER!" I could hear my sister sprinting as I cling to life. My breath left my body when my head hit the hard ground.
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Thursday, April 25th
Dear Diary,
I don't want to go to school. I legit have nothing to wear. Lana continues to threaten me and I'm honestly sooooo done. Her rumors and lies are annoying. I mean for God's sake... its been 5 years since we stopped being friends. I miss the person she was before our parents stopped talking.... Oh shit.. i need an outfit... I can't wear my clothes. These hand me downs will ruin me today... dear God let my sister have something i can wear.. brb.
Ok.. i have secured the goods. Ripped jeans, hoodie, and my combat boots. Thank God for her edgy style. Talk later
- Kass

I put down my note book and got ready for school. "Hopefully today will be decent. I'm tired of hiding every new bruise," I thought. I sprinted down the stairs to find dad Cooking pancakes. Mom was on a 24 hour shift. 1am-1am.. She's always working. I wish she would take some time off. Lately it's been hard concealing my quote on quote emotional trauma.
"Dad have you seen my clothes?" Fallon frantically entered the room. I prayed she wouldn't notice.
"I swear i left them right he..." crap... she saw.. We argued back and forth for a minute before she caved. Before i knew it i was headed to school.
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Students filled the hall as we rushed to 5th period.
"Hey K! You look awesome. Nice fit."
"Thanks." I smiled at the compliment. I had gotten a lot today. It paid to have a sister that worked at the best boutique in town.
"Hello Kassandra. I see confidence is exuding from you today." Mrs. Lavant Cocked her head with a smile.
"Thanks mrs. L! I feel Confident today!" I found my desk and unpacked my essentials.
"OK.. Pencil, pen, notebook, homework, and study guide! Thank god i have a system." For the first time in awhile i felt fine. Nothing dramatic had happened. I was a peace in my own little world.
"Look who's in my seat." Lana's voice made my skin crawl as she entered the room.
"Get up," she said.
"Lana this is my seat. It's been my seat for the whole year. I'm not moving because you want to act like a spoiled brat. Go park your royal ass somewhere else." Lana's eyes narrowed, and her face became bright red.
"Ladies Please sit in your ASSIGNED seats." Mrs. Lavant winked at me as she walked to the white board.
"Ok class today is simple. We'll be looking over our study guides. Then writing about our prompt Thats on the board." I completed my assignments whiting 30 minutes.
"Psst.. psst kassy...... kaaaaassssyyy." I looked over to see my classmate passing me a note.

Meet me at parent pick up.. i want to resolve things.
- Lana

The bell rang and I ran to parent pick up. This was going to be the day it ended. I don't know why she chose today, but I wasn't going to argue. I sat waiting by the gate.
"Good you got my note." Lana threw a punch and nearly fractured my jaw.  Stupid me.. believing such a twisted snake.
"I thought you wanted to resolve this. End our feud." I tried to reason, but she persisted. Lana lunged at me aiming for my face. This time i dodged.
"If your going to be a bitch don't be so predictable." I could see the steam pouring from her body.
"Why do you hate me? What did i ever do to you?" Lana paused, taking in my 'audacity'.
"You ruined my Family!" She huffed getting ready to strike again.
"What are you even talking about?" My body tensed up waiting for the punch
"You Fucked my dad! Everyone always loves poor little kassy. Well not anymore." She was pissed beyond what she could control. I was scared. No one knew how far she would take it.
"What are you talking about?!" Lana swung and made contact with my mouth.
*beep* *beep*
I could hear cars honking. My vision went in and out as i tried to compose myself.
"Let's put this behind us. I miss you Lana. Don't you miss me?" Lana's eyes softened for a split second. It was like she didn't want to.
"No you home wrecker." I was so confused.  Before i could truly react i found myself face down in the dirt. I had just gotten the absolute shit beat out of me. I wanted to welcome death or at the very least a grippy sock vacay. My body felt weak as i stood up. Oh My God... my brain was foggy, my vision blurred. I tilted my head in time to see Fallon strangling Lana in midair. "Maybe i should let her feel the exact way she made me feel. After all she loved dishing it out." My thoughts were running wild. I was fighting myself on morals. Fallon dropped her, and I knew if we stayed we'd both be in trouble.
"Come on Fallon lets go!" I grabbed her and B- Lined it to her car. She tried to convince me that she was protecting me. If I'm being honest sometimes it feels like she hates Lana as much as Lana hates me. We sat in silence for the majority of the car ride home. She apologized, but nothing would prepare me for the pain i knew was coming.
*bzz* *bzz*
1 unread message
Lana: You sister may save you now but you just wait til i get you alone. Your nothing and I can promise you I'm going to make sure it stays that way.
See what i mean? I felt the ache in my bones as i reread her message. Our feud was child's play compared to what i was about to face. But now I'm getting ahead of myself. I watched the bluebirds fly by my window. Each one different. One of them rested on my window ledge. I couldn't help but notice the Carmel coat it bared underneath it's striking blue feathers. It was like a small coat that glistened in the sun beams. Another came and sat beside him. This one had a striking blue covering everywhere with a baby blue chest. I opened my window praying they wouldn't fly away.
"Aren't you two beautiful." They puffed out their chest practically peacocking their feathers.
"Oh my!" I giggled holding out my fingers as a gesture of good faith.
"You're ok," i whispered. "I don't know about you mr. bluebirds but i had an excruciating day." The bluebirds cocked their heads as if hanging on to my every word. I told them everything. For once it was nice to talk with out someone talking over me.
"At least you guys don't have to deal with drama. You get to fly anywhere and be free."
"Free.." I thought. A concept I couldn't foresee for me. Maybe one day i would fly from this decaying nest. But as of now i was stuck. Bound to the cage everyone had built for me. I was a pet both adored and abused.