Fallon

Chapter 14: Pitiful Surrender

Rachel moved across my room, wearing the wood down with each stride. Her worrying escalated as i walked through the thin door. She shifted her weight from one foot to the other, giving me a quick glance while biting her nails.
"What's wrong doodle?" Her eyes rose from the floor and met mine. Rachels stern expression softened, leaving a sweet sultry look upon her face. She floated over to the door, landing in front of me, making our lips inches apart.  I felt her warm breath cover my upper lip as she pulled me into a kiss. Placing my hand on the small of her back i locked into her embrace. Her honey glazed lips tasted like candy with each movement she made.

I backed away moving my kiss to her neck. She let out a slight moan whispering my name. I felt my throbbing member press against her leg while i left my mark near her shoulder. Fuck this feels good. The thought of her being pleasured made me want to cater to her every whim. I watched her skin create goosebumps as i moved lower. Her breath shortened as i placed my hands on her waist band lowering her pants. I placed my hand in her dripping wet slit, moving back and forth. Her body shook as i rubbed her throbbing clit with the pad of my thumb. I love it when she shakes. I entered two of my fingers inside her while continuing to stimulate the outside. Her soft moans became sadistic whines of pleasure with each stroke.

Rachels hand caressed her perky breasts while her body waved. She was pleasuring herself with my hand. Fuck she's hot. Her left hand ran down her body and landed on mine. Removing me from her, she lifted my cum coated fingers to her mouth and began sucking them clean. I let out a small whimper as i could feel me edging towards an orgasm. She hasn't even played with me and I'm ready to explode. Dropping my pants i released my aching member from the prison that held it captive. I lowered my body, licking hers on the way down. Her body trembled as i flicked my tongue against her soaked pussy. She squirmed and twitched with pleasure.

Rachel gabbed a fistful of hair forcing me down with no breath left. I began completely and erratically consuming her sweet nectar as it flowed from her body. She spastically thrashed on the bed from extreme pleasure as i continued, not stopping when she was finished.
"Fuck Tony.. Is this what you want from Fallon." Rachel bit her bottom lip while Her seductive whisper lingered. I paused watching her body convulse as she released once more in my face, completely covering me in her sexual juices. 
"What?" The thought of Fallon and I's kiss retraced my memory while Rachel spoke as if it were foreplay. I remembered how much i had wanted her in that moment. How much I loved Fallon. Tears swelled in the corner of my eyes as i choked.

"Is this what you thought of when you fucking kissed her. When you lied about seeing her. Was that one kiss worth ruining everything we had?" I stood up trying to grasp the concept she had just spoken. How did she know?  My mind raced trying to come up with a valid answer or solution to the mess i created. I couldn't tell her i had gotten jealous because i saw her flirting with Tyler. I couldn't say pictures of her and you crossed my mind. My body stood frozen as she screamed profanities at me.
"I thought you wanted us all together? As a couple. Why are you getting so worked up." Why the fuck did i say that?! Like that was smart. Your an idiot Tony. Just shut up!! The look of sheer astonishment from my audacity consumed her face. Rachel leaned in my direction pointing her middle finger at me.

"I didn't want to be lied to you raging JACK ASS! I wanted a threesome not for you to cheat on me and lie about it." Her face was covered in hives from her irritation as she hurried to put on her pants.
"I'm sorry Rach. I didn't know." Pulling up her waistband she looked at me with rage filled eyes. I could see tears form as she threw shoes at my head, praying one would hit me.
"No you don't get to use that excuse. You don't get to say sorry and everything be fixed. You don't get to love me anymore." My heart burned with fire that could've only come from grief. I couldn't move or say a word as she headed for my bedroom door. Rushing to her, I grabbed her arm begging her not to leave with the emotion behind my eyes. She jerked her body free and exited, leaving a cold breeze as she walked.
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I could feel my body vibrate with anger as I watched the girl i love climb into Tylers car. He was using her. How could she not see that? My tears burned as they rolled down my red cheeks, making me taste their salty composition. The lingering smell of booze wafted in the air as i walked back into the party for my sister.
"Dude what the fuck?! This day is about me, not your petty drama with a man three times your size." Bunny's voice muffled under the blaring music she had chosen. I couldn't ignore the fact that she was right, nor could i let her think i agreed with her statement.
"Would you stop whining Bun. Everyone knows the only reason you threw this shit rager was to apologize to Fallon." I could feel the flames of ever clear and whiskey making their way back up as i stumbled through the porch.

Her words became vile sounds as she defended her cause but, I didn't care. I could feel my throat burn while i begged for it to stay down for just a moment longer, as i struggled to make it to the bathroom. Leaning on the plastic chair, i grasped the open back, vomiting viciously on Bunny's three tiered Madagascar vanilla cake we catered. The gasps and horrified guests gawked at what i had just accomplished.
"MY CAKE! YOU ASSHOLE! YOU RUINED MY BIRTHDAY!" Bunny's screeching only made me ferociously vomit more, this time on the presents that sat adjacent to her dessert table. Tears flooded my eyes as i gagged and heaved, while Bunny stomped away, leaving a party full of disgusted people watching.
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My reflection mocked me as I cleaned the barf from my nauseated face. I clung my hand to my head while drums banged inside my mind, making me wince in complete agony from the pain it inflicted. Thoughts of  Fallon danced across my memory, while thoughts of Rachel and I's break up tore me down once more. They coincided with one another. Begging for sweet relief, I turned on the shower to a strikingly warm temperature and climbed in. My clothes soaked up the boiling water while i gently tilted my head back, letting the heat engulf my bruised face. I debated texting Fallon to apologize for my actions, even though i felt no wrong. After all, she was the one who had led me on. I only made the move i did after she looked at me longingly.

I slid my clothes off and through them onto the condensation coated tile. Water overfilled my nostrils as i held my breath, waiting for common sense to return. If only she knew why me and Rachel parted ways. Maybe she would be mine.. Maybe she wouldn't want Tyler's stupid body crashing onto hers. My muddled thoughts came to a halt while ringing overtook my eardrums. The heat once flowing from the fixture had turned ice cold startlingly fast. Picking myself off the bottom of the tub, I stumbled to the towel on the counter. "I don't know if it's because I'm smashed but, the fibers of this towel feel like pine needles and sandpaper," i thought.

I reached for my phone, wiping away the fog that laid on my screen. Not one message from either of them. Letting out a heavy sigh, I shuffled to my bedroom. The Luke warm wooden floor caressed my feet throughout the travel. I opened the soft fabric bin, grabbing a pair of black sweats, pulling them on. My bed called to me like a bitch in heat, as i stumbled to it. The softness of my sheets and comforter encased me.
"I'm a burrito," I whispered happily, pulling the covers in tighter than before. My eyes hung low while my head swished as if on a ship. Dizziness overcame my entire being, rocking me into unmanageable sleep.
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    "What the fuck is your problem?! " Bunny's eyes trailed my sore stature as she entered my room abruptly. Just leave me alone! I shifted to my side as she swung open my door. Gritting her teeth, she stomped towards my bed, picking up a pillow and slamming it down on my face. Is she trying to suffocate me?! Are you freaking kidding me right now?! I kicked as she bared down. Was she seriously so incompetent that she thought a object that was breathable would kill me? I grasped her nipple, Fucking pinching til she cried. Her breath staggered sparsely as she lifted her weighted hands off the pillow. I felt rage tense up her body. Heat radiated through the space we inhabited.

"YOU FUCKING BITCH!!" She screamed. Her fists became like rocks as she pelted me with atomic punches. My chest became jello filled as she assaulted me continually. I attempted to block her hits, flailing my arms in front of me making the pillow fall to the floor. I grabbed both nipples once more as tears flowed from her face, twisting with all my force.
"Get off you psychotic hemorrhaging bitch ass." She squeaked in pain as i threw her body on the floor. She rubbed her sore areolas trying to alleviate the intense agony i had created.

"Why are you such a waste of space you idiotic man child. You're 20 years old. Grow up!" Her blue eyes deepened with anger and wallowing sadness as I sat up, contemplating my next move while she whimpered in the corner. Placing my feet on the floor, i staggered my way half blind (from my drunkenness) over to Bun. I could tell she was hurt. Her demeaning body language and iced out eyes gave that away.
    "I'm sorry... I shouldn't have drank at your party. I should've waited til everyone left or gone to my room." Bunny's subtle glances softened as i continued.

    "It wasn't right bringing my own feelings into your day. I know Rachel breaking up with me was my fault but, It's fresh and it feels like my heart is on fire while my insides are being ripped to shreds." Salty tears rolled down my hot red cheeks. I could immediately feel Rachels rejection all over again.

    Why did you lie tony?
    Was i not good enough?
    was one kiss really worth it?

I remember staying silent as she questioned my motives. No words came to my mind as Rachel screamed at me. In that moment i stood paralyzed by the hot burning fire caught in my throat. It was all a memory now and somehow my present reality. I spiraled as Bunny huffed storming out of my room. What a fucking day.