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"𝖫𝗈𝗏𝖾．．" | minsung

Genre: angst
Minsung

Warnings:
Implications of attempted suicide
Cursing

No one's pov:

Jisung and Minho were best described like.. cats fighting over a rat; even if the rat wasn't there anymore.

"I love you."

Jisung said.

"I hate you."

Jisung also said.

It was so confusing. Were they in love? Did they actually love each other? Was this all worth it? Minho hated how he had to think of this. He wanted to keep the relationship up, and he knew jisung wanted to too, but they both deep down, though never accepting it, knew, that there was nothing worth keeping anymore.

Jisung was scared of all of it happening all over again.
He was scared of sitting down crying on his living room floor once again.
He was scared of having to choose between people.
He was scared of love.

Minho however, he wasn't scared. He was up to take everything in, from feeling happy and In love to feeling his heart break more and more little by little.

However, he wanted to be more like jisung. He wanted to stop being so 'abrupt' and to think before doing.

Jisung wanted to be more like Minho
And Minho wanted to be more like jisung.

Something that was inevitable however, was that, they were both tired.
They wanted their happy ending.
They wanted a nice, fun, and happy relationship.Not one with rocks and mountains, and seemingly endless oceans to cross.

But it wasn't meant to be.

"I TOLD YOU TO STOP BABYING ME, IM A FULL GROWN ADULT AND YOU NEED TO START TO UNDERSTAND THAT"

"Jisung, calm down plea-"

"CALM DOWN? OH REALLY? IM TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT MINHO. STOP TREATING ME LIKE A FUCKING BABY BECAUSE IM NOT."

"Lower your voice. We don't wanna be called on again. I'm sorry if I made you feel like I baby you jisung, but I just care for you and-"

"If you'd care for me, you'd listen to me."

That was one of all of their fights. Minho did change, but jisung somehow.. hated this change.

"Minho, do you not care anymore?"

"Hm? Why would I not love?"

"I feel like you just don't care anymore about me.. I know I asked for you to back off, but I miss you min."

"Jisung love, you know that I'd do anything just to make you happy, but I'm stressed of all this, one day you want me to go away.. the other you want me back?"

"You're right.. I'm sorry min, I'll try being better too."

Minho pulled jisung into a hug, rubbing his back.

Moments like these, were the ones that made both of them have second thoughts over their relationship. One day they were both happy, the other sad and mad. It was.. weird.

They couldn't place what was going wrong.

Jisung was in a bad place when Minho and him got to know each other, and Minho slowly got him out of it. He still goes to therapy, he has trust issues and constantly overthinks; thankfully, he's stopped doing 'worse' stuff, and doesn't have 'dark' thoughts anymore, or not as much as before.

He is immensely thankful of this with Minho, and constantly feels like he owes Minho something, tho Minho denies it, because Minho loves him. Always loved him.

And Minho always asks himself, does jisung love him back?

The answer.. well, only jisung knows. Or does he?

Jisung assures himself that he loves Minho, but what if their relationship is only a thing because jisung feels like he owes Minho something, therefor getting with him?

..no that can't be it...

Right?

Nonetheless, they'll keep trying and fighting, even if there's nothing to fight for.

"I love you"

They tell each other, but who would've guessed that those three words, can be one of the hardest ones to say.. and in some cases.. admit?

Oh how much jisung and Minho hated those three words.. does love.. even exist?

Maybe? Maybe not. No one knows.

They'll keep fighting for their 'love' for their 'relationship'.. even if the signs are obvious, and the I love yous, sometimes, aren't even real.

"I love you"

"No you don't."

"But I do love you?"

"I love you too."

"But I don't anymore."

End..?

A/N: im sorry that this is most likely so confusing and bad 😭 I hope you can understand what I was trying to do, the last sentences written in bold aren't specified who they're said by, as I want you (the reader) to do your own pov's of it depending on how you view it, and how you'd think it'd happen.

I tried writing the whole story from both of their pov's mixed up, so you saw Minhos thoughts in a part and the next were Jisungs, it's all mixed up and possibly messy, but I hope you can, as a reader, understand why:)

Thank you for reading!!

Fact of the day: I do all my OneShots in the moment, I don't recite what I'll write minutes before, which is why my OneShots are shit lol