"𝖲𝗅𝖾𝖾𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝗈 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝖽 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗉 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀" | chansung (platonic)

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Genre: fluff/angst
• Platonic Chansung

Warnings:
Overthinking

Jisung pov:

I woke up in a panic, beads of sweat strolling down my forehead, cheeks hot and my heart accelerated. What is wrong with me? I just want to sleep. That's all.

But.. what if this is some sort of punishment because
I'm not enough?
Or perhaps because
I'm not as good as others?
Or because
I'm not "normal"?

I feel like everyone judges me. My friends, family, stays, everyone.

And I wouldn't blame them.

Im a mess.
I'm pathetic.
I'm a freak.
I need help.
I'm alone.
I'm stupid.
I'm useless.
I'm worthless.
I'm-

• "Ji! Jisung!"

- "huh? Oh uh- yes Chan?"

• "I was worried. You're moving a lot and mumbling. A nightmare maybe? How are you feeling?"

- "not a nightmare.. I'm okay.."

I saw him reluctantly turn around. Maybe I convinced him this time?

• "We both know somethings wrong. I'm your friend ji, if there's anything you would like to let out, I'm here, ight?"

I subtly shuffled to the corner of the bed, shook my head with tears welling into my eyes. I laid down, turning my back to Chan.

Why did he care?
I'm not important.
He probably is faking it.
Because otherwise, why?
I'm not worth anything good.
And I don't blame him for faking sympathy.
Why am I like this?
Why am I not more like Felix or hyunjin?
I want to be different
I want to stop being like this
I'm tired
I'm so tired
And I don't know how-

I felt arms wrapping around me, I looked up and as expected, Chan had hugged me.

• "why are you crying? Don't waste your tears on stuff that isn't important. We all love you. I love you. And I'll always be here for you jisung. I'll help you get rid of those thoughts, and make you appreciate yourself as you should."

More tears rolled down my cheeks, as I silently sobbed against his shoulder.

• "I love everything about you. Your jokes, your laugh, your personality, your vocals, your beautiful smile, the way you make us smile, how you always think about others.. in my eyes, you're absolutely perfect. Inside and out."

I don't know how long we stayed hugging, but it was enough for me to eventually fall asleep..

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A/N: this is REALLY short so apologies for that 😭

Fact of the day: you're important, amazing, and beautiful/handsome.

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