Amber. [A Poetry Book]

The Truth

Shrouded by the smile painted on my face

Disguising the pain from being replaced.

Tossed to the side, having no place to hide

As the storm within me brews inside.

Only now am I truly starting to confide

About the hole in my heart that happens to be wide.

Forgive and forget? But it's not over yet.

If it would disappear, I'd be all set.

Shrouded by the sparkle in my deep hazel eyes

As the voice inside of me howls and cries.

I push it away, pretending like I'm okay

And somehow manage to make it through the day.

What am I, exactly? This is what I say:

I'm a player in a game I don't want to play.

It's said and done - guess what? You won.

Thank you for playing. I hope you had fun.

Shrouded by the stories that seem filled with glee

As I'm distraught by my many insecurities.

This burden in my brain is hard to explain

But you may see the sun while I see the rain.

Feeling more useless than a broken chain

As I view the world in utter disdain.

I hold on tight to make things right

And before you know it, I've won the fight.

No longer shrouded by the smile on my face

My heart no longer consists of that empty space.

That sparkle you see in my deep hazel eyes

Is as bright as the sun - now, are you surprised?

The stories I tell that are filled with glee

No longer disguise my once deep misery.

My world seems bright like the stars at night

And for the first time in a while, everything seems right.

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Hey guys, this poem was first posted in my random book, called Random Is My Middle Name. It was for an assignment in English class. (I got a 98.) This poem is basically a small summary of some of the things that I have dealt with. Losing people, if you would say.

You'll hear more about those people further on. I'll probably write a few poems about them, rather than one for everyone.

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