Love You :) (Jahvie)

Death To Your Heart

A/N PLEASE DONT HATE ME!

Dahvie's POV

I opened my eyes slowly, a big grin on my face as I woke up feeling calm and peaceful. I felt Jayy's arms wrapped around me lightly, my head rested on his chest, and I smiled up at his still sleeping face. I had woken up in Jayy's arms once again, but this time I wasn't leaving them. I wasn't going to leave this, because I loved him and I didn't give a fuck what people would say. I lifted my head up towards his, kissing him lightly, trying to wake him up, but he only moved a little in his sleep, then he was still again. I kissed him again, harder, and his eyes fluttered a bit, opening, and he started to kiss me back. I pulled back, smiling.

"Can you wake me up like that every day?" Jayy asked with a smirk and a chuckle. I laughed and nodded, smiling at the thought of waking up with him ever day, going to bed with him every night. That sounded perfect. Jayy's lips pressed against mine once more. I was content in his arms. Finally with the man I loved. But wait... I started thinking though... I wasn't truly with him, was I. He was with Jeffree. What had we just done last night? How could we have done that? How could I have made him do that?

"Jayy, does this mean we're back to being friends with benefits, because you're in a relationship! And we had sex last night! You cheated on him. Shit! Fuck! I'm sorry Jayy, it's my fault, I-" Jayy cut me off with a kiss.

"Shh Dahvie. It was not your fault. I wanted that too, and about me and Jeffree-"

"No! Jayy, you don't understand! I don't want to ruin your relationship with him, and I can't go back to being fuck buddies. Fuck this! I - Jayy. I'm sorry about this..." I trailed off, feeling down now, all hint of happiness was gone.

"Dahv. Listen to me." Jayy demanded, forcing me to look up at him by grabbing my chin firmly but gently in his hand, "Don't be sorry, cause I'm not."

"But Jayy, you just cheated on your boyfriend, and I... I lov-." i froze, stopping myself. I trailed off, and then cleared my throat.

"I almost told you I .." I whispered to myself, shocked at how easily it had almost been said. I had almost told Jayy I loved him. But Jayy sat there silently, looking just as shocked as I felt. I wasn't sure if he had heard me.

"Dahvie-"

"No, Jayy don't say anything. Please forget I said anything. Let's just forget everything Jayy." I whispered, making my way quickly out of the room, into my own.

"Dahvie! Wait!" Jayy called after me.

My heart hurt as I felt like running back to him and telling him exactly how I felt, and how I secretly wanted to ruin his relationship with Jeffree so Jayy could be with me. I wanted to have Jayy for my own, and I wanted to tell him everyday how much I loved him.

But I couldn't.

"Dahvie." Jayy's voice was heard just outside of my door, which I had locked behind me.

"Jayy, I told you to forget it! Let's forget everything, it never meant anything anyway, did it?" I asked, wanting him to say no, and that it had meant everything to him, just like it had to me. He was silent on the other side of the door.

"I ... I guess not." he whispered, and I hear him sigh deeply. My heart broke as he said that and confirmed my fears. He never had loved me, it had all been fun and games. I waited for him to say something else, but he didnt, and soon I heard his footsteps fading away down the hall towards his own room.

Jayy's POV

So the truth comes out. At last. None of it had meant anything. None of it had mattered. Dahvie didn't feel the same way. He never had.