Love You :) (Jahvie)

Lose Control

A/N I don't think this posted last time I tried..

Jayy's POV

I continued to stare up at the ceiling of my room, trying not to think of last night. Dahvie and I had fought, and now I felt really bad. And yet I still stayed in the comforts of my bed, listening to the sound of the rain hitting the bus. Gloomy weather for a gloomy day, right? I seriously didn't want to get up yet, but it was almost noon, and we had another show tonight. Groaning, I climbed out of bed and made my way to the kitchen area as slowly as I could. I found everyone (not including Dahvie) sitting around. I figured that Dahvie was still in bed, still upset over last night. I had called him a bipolar bitch. Shit. I wanted to apologize, but I let him have his space for now. Apologies could come later.

"Morning." I called to everyone, who all nodded or grunted in return.

"It's after noon, Jayy. Not morning anymore." Haley said, chuckling at me.

"So why isn't Dahvie up?" someone questioned, "I'm hungry." they pouted, and I laughed. Everyone was so use to Dahvie just making us something to eat that we were hopeless with cooking for ourselves. I shrugged, "Probably still sleeping. Do you want me to go wake him?" I asked.

"No, I'll go wake him." Haley volunteered, and walked away. A few minutes later she came back, a worried and confused look on her face.

"Jayy." she whispered, eyes wide. I instantly started to worry.

"What?!" I demanded.

"It's Dahvie. He's gone." she whispered.

"What? Are you sure?" I demanded. She scoffed, "Really Jayy? You think I would joke about this? Go fucking look! He's. Not. There!" I ignored her and ran to Dahvie's room, only to find it empty. I checked everywhere, nothing else was out of place. But Dahvie obviously wasn't there. Haley came into the room after me and sighed.

"I told you Jayy. He's not here. Where do you think he is?" she asked.

"I - I don't know. Maybe he went out for a drink, I mean he did seem pretty upset last night after-"

"What happened last night, Jayy?" Haley asked curiously. I looked away guiltily, "Just the worst fight I've ever had with Dahvie. He was pretty angry last night, throwing shit. I said something I didn't mean, and..." I trailed off, leaning against the wall suddenly tired, and I leant my head backwards. Haley sighed, sitting down beside me. She didn't say anything, but she didn't need to. I told her about the fight.

"I called him a bipolar bitch." I whispered quietly, "And I may have sorta said I couldn't stand being around him. In a way. I didn't mean it.."

"Jayy, when he gets back, you seriously need to apologize to him. Or I'll chop your fucking balls off." she said in a dead serious tone. I nodded, "I know. I know. I fucked up."

"Jayy, if you love him, if you truly love him, just tell him soon, before it's too late." Haley advised me, and then got up.

"Haley." I stopped her, "Do you think Dahvie will be back soon?" I asked her.

"Yes Jayy." she chuckled a bit, "It's so adorable that you're worried." and then she left. I had a bad feeling in my stomach, and I tried to ignore it. It only got worse as the day passed by, and Dahvie still wasn't here. I finally snapped when we were making our way to the concert.

"God dammit! Where the hell is Dahvie?" I almost yelled. Everyone looked worried too, and Jeffree pulled me back away from everyone else. We stopped walking while everyone else walked on.

"Jayy, please stop worrying babe. Dahvie will be here, he's probably on his way right now." I nodded and we made our way backstage. Jeffree left and I started to work on my makeup, and my worrying continued and worsened as Dahvie still didn't show up. Where the hell was he?