Love You :) (Jahvie)

Unforgiven

Ugh this chapter gave me major writers block. Just Sayin

Dahvie's POV

I had almost let it slip. I had almost told Jayy that I love him. Stupid vulnerability! Making me say shit! I couldn't tell Jayy why the dreams had upset me, and I could tell it was bothering him. I decided to keep ignoring him because for one he would keep asking about that night and two: Jeffree almost never left his side. I couldn't stand being near when they started being all lovey dovey. It hurt. And it scared me. What if my dream did come true? What if in a few years Jayy and Jeffree will get married? What if Jayy never knows how much I love him?

Well it wouldn't matter, would it? I was wasting my love. Jayy had Jeffree, and that wasn't going to change anytime soon, considering they were sitting close together on the couch, whispering quietly together, occasionally kissing and giggling like the lovesick couple that they were. I forced my eyes away from the sight, trying to focus for the show tonight. Which brings up another thing. What about our stage kiss?

You know, the part in the concert where Jayy and I make out on stage. Would we still kiss? He was in a relationship with someone on tour with us. I was just a little curious to see what would happen. And I still wanted to kiss him of course. I continued to try and ignore the giggling and kissing but it was hard. And then it was finally time to go get ready for our concert. I hurried out of the bus and made me way inside the venue. Jayy and Jeffree held hands for the line of people outside, and they even kissed for them. They went crazy, shouting out how cute of a couple they made.

We hurried inside, waving at the fans, and then Jeffree had to go his own way. Okay, I love Jeffree to death because he's a great friend, but I was glad when he left Jayy's side. I relaxed just a little bit and pulled Jayy along with me backstage, holding onto his wrist. I let go, much to my dissapointment, as soon as we made it to the dressing rooms and makeup stations. I was already in my stage outfit, and started on my hair and makeup. I was carefully applying my two stripes when I heard Jayy say my name. I finished the stripe, and then turned around, "Yeah"

I watched him apply the rest of his own makeup skillfully, and waited for him to speak when he was done.

"I was just wondering, are we suppose to kis-" he was cut off by someone yelling for us to hurry up and get on stage. We threw our makeup down and rushed to get on stage. We slowed and went on stage calmly, smirking into the crowd as they started screaming our names and chanting, "BOTDF!" it felt great. I loved the feeling of being on stage in front of people who loved you. I loved our fans.

"Who's ready to fucking get out of control?" I yelled excitedly, and I was answered with a loud scream from the crowd. And then we started into the first song.

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It was time then. For the kiss. Jayy looked at me, and I just stated back. We were both confused, and didn't know what to do. But we knew what the crowd wanted.

"Kiss! Kiss! Kiss!" they chanted, also screaming about 'Jahvie' which made me chuckle. Jayy surprised me by placing his hands on my waist and pulling me to him. He stared at me with a smirk, waiting for me to make the move. The crowd was going crazy, but I didn't hear them at all. I was captivated by the gorgeous man in front of me, waiting for me to kiss him. Well, I better not keep him, or the crowd, waiting any longer.

The kiss surprisingly started out gently, but soon my lips were hungrily attacking his, my tongue licking his bottom lip. We pulled away, and I grinned into the crowd. Wow. That kiss was hot. I swear I felt firework- alright lets not be cheesy. So my heart was beating a thousand beats a minute but no one else knew or needed to know that. I couldn't tell what Jayy was thinking, and it bothered me. Did he not just feel that? He didn't show any signs that he did, and we continued singing like nothing happened.