My Way to Get To You (MxM)

Chapter 14

"How far your relationship with Prince Shelton really ?"said Easton when I'm about to take him back to his cart. I stunned with his question. "It's between us !" he said again "General Anton wouldn't know I promise. We know each other a long time, and I know you longer than prince Shelton know you, at least you owe me that."

I can't come up with any words yet, and Easton can sumerize all my answer. "That serious, huh ? So, you really have feeling for him ?"

"I don't wish you to understand, moreover general Anton, I know enough this is wrong, and you have every right to judge me. I don't wish for your support either, you're free to hate me."

For a second, there is no other words come from Easton again, then he's looking at me. "You're is the closed I can call a brother, you know I don't have any relatives in this world before I've met you. We struggled together, how can't you're not trusthing me and keeping a secret from me ? Yes, I'm shocked at first, but I'm not gonna leave you, you're my brother."

I shocked, but kinda relieved with those words, at least I still have Easton in my back. "Thank you, Easton, and I'm sorry. I can't be a good brother to you." 

"You're gotta becareful, general Anton is right, Prince Shelton is our crown prince, you're gotta aware that he's every moved is watched by every pairs of eyes in this kingdom, his name shall not be ruined by any scandal, and you have Natalie by your side !"

I know that, and I'm very aware by his position even before Easton mentioned it. If a human can control their own feeling, to grow and to erese it, I probably gonna erese it a long time ago. "Although I can tell that his feeling for you is very real." Said Easton again "But you're gotta be careful, and please don't hurt Natalie. She's also the closed I can call my sister, and I can't forgive you if you're ever hurt her."

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Ready or not that day is coming for us. I was preparing to the war when Natalie coming in to the equipment room. "I just loathe that clan from my deepest , darkest heart !"she said. I smiled a little "We are all hate that clan." I said while checking the arrow and the sword.

"How long will you go ?" she said

"I can't tell, can be weeks or months." Suddenly she hugged me from behind "I don't care how long, I just need you to come back, or it's gonna feel lonely." She said while taking my hands to her stomach, I widened my eyes and stomped.

"You means ?" "You're gonna be a father !" she said happily then hug me, "So, you gotta come back to me, and don't leave me for any reason."

I don't understand what feeling inside me right now. It's a bit of happy, a bit of excitement, a bit of scared, and a bit of confusing. How things are gonna be more complicated, how's I'm gonna facing myself in front of the mirror if I still seeing her brother. What confusing moment are gonna be later.

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The next day I meet with Prince Shelton in my old house. He immediately hug me and kiss me by the time I entered my house, but I received it half heartly. "What's happened ?" he said. "We have to stop all of this ?" I replied

"All of what ?" 

"This secret meeting. I can't endure it anymore, I feel guilty to Natalie every time I got home from meeting you, I feel betray her."

"You marry her alone is already a betrayal !" he said again "Come on ! talk to me, what really happen ? I know you that much, I can feel that's not the only reason. I know how much you missed me back when we never meet each other."

I'm thinking for the best answer, should I tell him the truth ? "She's got my child." I said weakly "I can't abonded her for that."

"Is that what bother you ?" he said while pulling me to his arm and caress my cheek, but I still can't look at his eyes. "Look at me, I already have like 6 children from my wives, but I still can meet you like this, if we becarefull, they wouldn't notice !"

I feel disturbed with his comment, I moved my body away from him." I'm not a heartless like you, moreover, it's your sister we talked about. Natalie was my best friend to begin with, I can't bear the feeling or betraying her."

"So, what do you want ? Ignore our feeling like those horrible 2 months ? Are you sure you can do it again ?"

"I don't know ! Okay, don't push me further, because I really don't know !" I said. I let out all my emotion in this confersation. I can't belive he take this problem very easily.

"All I know is in two days we have a big fight, we gotta prepare for that, and I have to concentrate on that matter !"

"That doesn't solve anything !" he said angrily "Nothing can realy solve our problem !" I replied "We're in a big mistake to start with."

"This is not a big mistake !"he said while holding my hands "In fact, this the most real thing in my life, me with you, is the reason my life has a meaning."

I still can't look him at his eye, I still doubting about everything, and he noticed it. He then give me a very sad smile "I know that look, you still can't thrust this relationship, and you're right about one thing. In two days, we're gonna have a big battle, and we're gonna prepare for that, now you should go home."

I looked at him in confused, I thought we're gonna argue this matter longer then this. But I don't want think about that any longer, I kiss his hand as a clue that I still love him and hope that he get my clue, and I think he did. He then kiss me in my forehead "I'll see you in two days."he said

"See you in battlefield."

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