My Way to Get To You (MxM)

Chapter 17

The palace still feel a sorrow after they have to burry one of their best soldier, their first commander who died in rescuing the hostage in a battle, Easton's best friend and a brother, Princess Natalie's husband, the king's son in law who he's already love like his own son, a loyal subordinate for General Anton, and a lover for Prince Shelton. Every worker has to talk very carefully to those people. They easily to provocate, especially Prince Shelton. Since Kaiden's died 5 days ago, he barely even eat, even getting out from his room, and nobody can enter his room either.

On the 6th day a brave woman dare to knocking at his room. "Open up brother ! Don't be silly to treat your body this way !" She shout, but she has no answer from that room. "I'm gonna kick this door if I have to, so, if you still want to sleep nicely in this room tonight you better let me in !" but still nor reaction from that room. "Fine ! You asked for it ! Don't tell me that I haven't warn you !"

Some one then smash in that door enough for this brave princess come to see her brother. 

There, she sees her brother lying unconscious with lot of alcohol bottle around him. "You're pathetic!" she said "I thought you as a strong person, turn out, you're the weakest person I know. She ordered some of the guard to get him to another room and taking care of him there.

Shelton just awake in the middle of that night, and Natalie is there reading some poet. "Natalie ?" he said. Natalie look at him and walk to the other room and come back with some food, then bring it to him."Eat it now !" she said

"I don't feel like eating." "Don't be a spoiled kid, now ! I know your sadness, I can feel that sadness too ! I just lost my husband, you know, but I don't want my feeling taking over my future ! I still have to take of my body, and my child !"

"Easy for you to say !" he said weakly "Your not the one who became the last person he talked with."

"You're supposed to feel lucky because you're the last person to spend his last day with, I haven't even say my goodbye to him !" she said while starting to cry "Have you forget, after I learnt he chose you, I gave away my time with him for you ? Even in his last day, I just see him for a couple hours, then his all yours, and you say that's isn't enough for you ? your just being selfish you now that ?"

Shelton wake up from his bed and hug his little sister. "I'm sorry I'm being selfish, I haven't ask how are your condition after he died. I'm sorry I was so preoccupied with my feeling. I just can't believe he's leaving me this way."

"You and me both lost him. Now I know how much you love him, but I know too how much he loved you, and I believe he doesn't want to looked at you this way."

Shelton is just starting to cry in his sister's hug. He's not feeling any better, nothing can make him feelling any better, but Natalie is right. He can't make Kaiden worried about him, he want Kaiden at his peace, even that means they can not meet in a long time now but that meet is worth to wait.

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Eventually that wait is not as long as he thought. A few weeks after their attack in their North West region, the Black Lotus Clan give their all to get revenge of their lost. A big war can not be avoided in the center of the kingdom. Their also give their best to counter the attack from that clan.

A lots of their soldier have died, but not as much as their clan, but the kingdom can defeat the clan in the end. Just like a big storm, once it start, it make many damage in that place, but when it's over a calmer situation is there for them, with a big price of course. On that battle, they have to accepted that their crown prince have died to sacrifice his live for their kingdom.

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"Are you alright ?" said Easton. Right after Shelton funeral, Natalie still be the last person looking at the fire of the cremation until it become completely off. "How am I suppose to be alright ? I lost my husband and my closest brother just in a few weeks, in the name of the honour of this kingdom. Is this kingdom is worth to fight this much ?"

"You're not the one has lost the one their love, other people also feel your agony." Replied Easton again. Natalie smiled at him "You're right, I'm still lucky that my pregnancy is alright." Natalie look at Easton again "I'm sorry, I heard your wife lost your child in those battle ? And you're still here to help me arranged this funereal. You should go home to your wife, Easton, she need you the most."

"You two need me the most."said Easton, then give Natalie a smile. "You are my best friend, and so does Prince Shelton, moreover Kaiden, of course I still want mourn those two with you. We have long history together."

"You know what ! We don't have to mourn for them. My brother wants to go to Kaiden anyway, half of his life already died when Kaiden died, so, I think now he's happy for meeting him there."

Easton laugh "You're right, after I saw how Prince Shelton condition after Kaiden's death, I was kind of feel guilty that I forbid their love, but I think now they can be together at last.

"And leave me here ?" Natalie's think "If only Easton know what I feel, that I feel jealous of my brother, who can met Kaiden there. God, can I have a request ? In the next life, can I be with Kaiden now instead my brother ? I just still love Kaiden that much."

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