The Unknown Heartbreak of The Rebound Girl

Getting Angry

Zach: **Proceeds to send me a video of all his empty liquor bottles with "bruh" captioning it. Then another snap of them saying something about the collection being epic.**

Man literally just broke my heart and is now acting as if nothing happened. 

Zach: "Sorry, I didn't mean to send those to you, just a habit."

Habit. I was a habit. It started to click with me, he had lost interest a long time ago and I was just too oblivious to notice.

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Clara: "You let me feel like a burden instead of just being honest with me about your guilty feelings. You didn't owe me anything relationship wise, but I would've thought at the very least you could've talked to me instead of distancing yourself and making me feel like I was somehow to blame. The fact that you decided to give her another chance doesn't hurt nearly as bad as that did. I would've thought or hoped at the very least I meant enough to you for that."

I felt the anger beginning to grow in the pit of my stomach.

Zach: "I'm sorry Clara. I just didn't know how to tell you. I didn't want to say I was talking to her and you worry if it never led anywhere."

Are you fucking kidding me?! If it never led anywhere?! How desperate did he think I was to be his second option? 

Clara: "So I was your backup if things didn't work with her? You deserve one another if you truly think that was the better option."

Zach: "Not backup relationship. I just figured you wouldn't want to be my friend if we got back together. I was trying to find a way to hurt your feelings the least but there was no good option."

Now he's backtracking. I could feel myself questioning the things I was feeling, maybe I misread the things between us and thought it was more than what it actually was. No. I hadn't misread or misremembered anything. I remember it vividly. He told me he wanted to be with me. He said that. I did not imagine anything. He's just too ashamed to admit it. The only way he can go on believing he did nothing wrong is to exclude that part. 

Clara: "I would've been your friend because I thought more of you than just a potential relationship, I genuinely cared about you. I was always honest with you and never once went out of my way to hurt you just because you weren't looking for a relationship with me. You had an easy out the day after the concert and instead of letting me move on you dragged me back in confessing you had feelings too. Part of me wants to know why. Why would you play with someone the way you had been played with? But at the end of the day you don't owe me an explanation. I know my worth and I know it's not this."

Whatever he says next doesn't matter, you know the truth. Don't fall for his charm.

Zach: "Ok. I'm sorry."