The Unknown Heartbreak of The Rebound Girl

Trying to Find My Strength

August 11, 2023

Dear Flaming Garbage Human,

Realizing the person you loved was the one that hurt you the most is what growing up is. Putting someone on a pedestal makes it hard to see how truly awful they are to you. I was just trying to survive, and you were killing me under the guise of support, how stupid could I have been to trust you only had my best intentions at heart? I thought you were my savior, a knight in shining armor. I was wrong.

Every happy memory we had shared is slowly becoming the bane of my existence. Walking by the places we had once walked together makes me want to cry. I just want to exist in my world where you can't invade. I lived before you, but now that you're gone I feel myself suffocating without you. You came into my world and left with all the oxygen. How am I expected to be okay? I feel like I'm on life support now and any attempts to breathe on my own are destroying what I have left of my lungs.

You not only took my heart, but you took my best friend too. You just had to mess up so badly that I couldn't even keep you as a friend. I thought you cared about me, but I see now how ridiculous that was because you don't do stuff like this to the people you value. I keep reminding myself I'm worth more than what you treated me, but it's hard to believe when I genuinely saw you as a good guy before this.

I thought you liked me, and you let me believe it, saying you wanted me just had to figure out your stuff first. Your inability to see I was valuable means you're an idiot, not me. I get to go on to find a relationship where I'm happy and you're stuck with the person that crushed you twice before and that is what you deserve. I hope you two stick together and your miserable thinking about what could've been, about the person you threw away. You deserve nothing less, you pathetic, miserable being. How dare you put me through this. How dare you make me believe for a second you were good enough for me.

You are a loser because you lost me. I would've loved you unconditionally, but you will never know the feeling now and that's your loss.

- The best you could've had <3