𝙲𝚕𝚊𝚠𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙵𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚜

𝟏．𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐢𝐦 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚 𝐝𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐬

I'm just a holy fool, baby it's so cruel
But I'm still in love with Judas, baby

𝐘𝐀𝐑𝐀 ❦

Ears occupied with: GOOD LOYAL THOTS (nightcore)
Current mood: normal
Thursday, 3/8/2023

These commissions are getting kind of boring. I'm well aware that I can just change the region, but I've always found repetition comforting. No matter how many times I fight the same hilichurls in the same area, I never get bored. Personally, I don't know if it's because something's wrong with me, or if I'm just a coward.

Kio and I have been talking via the chat in Genshin for a while now, and we've still haven't found an app that both of us can use. Since my device is heavily restricted by my damn parents, I don't have access to many things. Hell, even the camera is restricted for some reason, as if I'm gonna go take pictures of some underpaid prostitutes or something...

I recently found out that both of us are also the sanest fans of Bungou Stray Dogs. I was smiling widely when I found out, because I didn't expect to stumble upon one so suddenly. She and I rambled about Bungou for a while, but she always has to leave pretty soon considering the time zones. She's Filipino and I'm a Syrian Kurd living in Saudi Arabia, therefore it's tough keeping up sometimes.

She's 5 fucking hours ahead of me, for God's sake.

I suddenly stop in my tracks when I see a red exclamation mark. Once I click, I see multiple messages from Kio, all in caps. I read through them, and despite the actual surprise I'm unable to feel that affected, much to my dismay.

✪ 𝖸𝖠𝖱𝖠
✪ 𝖣𝖨𝖣 𝖸𝖮𝖴 𝖲𝖤𝖤 𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖭𝖤𝖶 𝖢𝖧𝖠𝖯𝖳𝖤𝖱？
✪ 𝖣𝖠𝖹𝖠𝖨'𝖲 𝖣𝖤𝖠𝖣．
✪ 𝖢𝖧𝖴𝖴𝖸𝖠 𝖲𝖧𝖮𝖳 𝖧𝖨𝖬 𝖨𝖭 𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖧𝖤𝖠𝖣.
✪ 𝖠𝖭𝖣 𝖲𝖨𝖦𝖬𝖠𝖲 𝖠𝖫𝖲𝖮 𝖣𝖤𝖠𝖣．

I read the messages again, still not digesting the information properly. Once I do, I begin to panic.

𒊹︎ 𝖬𝖠𝖠𝖬 𝖧𝖮𝖶 𝖢𝖠𝖭 𝖣𝖠𝖹𝖠𝖨 𝖣𝖨𝖤
𒊹︎ 𝖧𝖤𝖲 𝖨𝖬𝖬𝖴𝖭𝖤 𝖳𝖮 𝖣𝖤𝖠𝖳𝖧 𝖶𝖣𝖸𝖬

I won't even lie, but I was actually losing my shit. I just recently began reading the manga and somehow managed to catch up, but I was told that the chapters are out at the fourth day of the month, not the third. However, it doesn't change the fact that I still haven't seen the chapter for myself.

I searched every single website, and even went through illegal ones that showed me locations of where to buy drugs. But I couldn't find the chapter. Kio and I were technically seizing at this point, typing in caps and trying to come up with theories that have no basis whatsoever. Not to mention, the sentences were barely readable due to the horrid spelling mistakes. If my English teacher found out about it, she'd probably prepare the rope before I blink.

Through the panic, we decide to finally move our conversation to Discord, where Kio decided to spoil the entire chapter on me in a literal sense. She sent several screenshots, and I was nearly about to scream if it wasn't for my dad sleeping.

The dialogue was in Japanese, meaning the chapter was still pretty fresh out of the oven. Despite not understanding shit, I still understood enough from the panels, and I was losing it.