𝙲𝚕𝚊𝚠𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙵𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚜

𝟐．𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞? 𝐢 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐧𝐨𝐭

do what you want to do, what you want to be,
what you want to be, what you want to...
go on and step on me

YARA ❦

Ears occupied with: YKWIM? (slowed//reverb)
Current mood: frustrated
Friday, 4/8/2023

I swear to God, I don't know what kind of charm I have, I didn't even know I had a charm in the first place. Whatever it is, I just have one question...

Why do I keep attracting emotionally unwell people?

What makes these people believe that I'm genuinely considerate of their well-being? What makes them think that they're always on my mind that I have to DM them daily? What about me is so delighting that some dumb guy caught feelings three minutes after his first message?

And this guy... the audacity he has makes me want to bomb my pancreas. Just the moment after his "I like u :/" he demanded we match profiles. And once again, I let it slide, but I was the one who chose the pictures and gave him the options.

Most were Soukoku and Fyolai (though I do not ship them, but they were wholesome.) And what made me so disgusted was the fact that he chose a Ranpo and Akiko one instead of the Fyolai one I had an eye on. When I interrogated him about it, he said "they're guys."

And?

The only people I DM daily are Kio and another friend of mine who helps me enormously regarding Genshin. I only feel secure within these two, otherwise it's always a facade that was never truthful.

𒊹︎ 𝗂𝗆 𝗌𝗈 𝗍𝗂𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗀𝗎𝗒 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗉
✪ 𝗐𝖺𝗂𝗍 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾 𝗆𝖾 𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗎𝗌𝖾𝗋
𒊹︎ 𝗇𝗎𝗁 𝗎𝗁 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍𝗋𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗀𝗈𝗇𝗇𝖺 𝖽𝗈
✪ 𝖩𝖴𝖲𝖳 𝖦𝖨𝖵𝖤 𝖬𝖤 𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖣𝖠𝖬𝖭 𝖴𝖲𝖤𝖱
𒊹︎ 𝖭𝖮
𒊹︎ 𝖳𝖥 𝖠𝖱𝖤 𝖸𝖮𝖴 𝖦𝖮𝖭𝖭𝖠 𝖣𝖮
✪ 𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗌𝖺𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗀𝖺𝗒

I chuckle lightly, truly amused. I immediately comprehend her plan, yet I choose to play dumb to get on her nerves. It's my way of showing affection, though it's not as fun to her.

𒊹︎ 𝗂𝗆 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝗈
✪ 𝖨𝖪 𝖩𝖴𝖲𝖳 𝖯𝖱𝖤𝖳𝖤𝖭𝖣 𝖳𝖧𝖠𝖳 𝖴 𝖠𝖱𝖤
✪ 𝖦𝖨𝖵𝖤 𝖬𝖤 𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖥𝖴𝖢𝖪𝖨𝖭𝖦 𝖴𝖲𝖤𝖱
𒊹︎ 𝗈𝗄 𝗈𝗄 𝖼𝗁𝗂𝗅𝗅

I thank God for the copy-paste blessing, and sent her what she wanted. I had an uneasy feeling, since he was spamming me with those lovey dovey bullshit since the fucking morning and I haven't replied yet. Though I wasn't entirely confident that Kio's plan was gonna work, I decided to let it happen. It's not like I can stop her, anyway. I slip into the guy's DM, and send a sweet little request.

𒊹︎ 𝗆𝗒 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗂𝗌 𝗀𝗈𝗇𝗇𝖺 𝖺𝖽𝖽 𝗎
𒊹︎ 𝗌𝗈 𝖺𝖼𝖼𝖾𝗉𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗋𝖾𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗌𝗍 <𝟥
⍟ 𝗌𝗎𝗋𝖾 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾

I stared at the screen in disgust, almost feeling my stomach doing backflips. I convey his reply to Kio, and soon they start messaging, while I'm excited to see the result.