Room Sixteen

20/Daddy?

Soren's pov

"She aborted our child and it was my fault, if I didn't tell her what happened to Margot she wouldn't have gotten so scared and that wouldn't have happened." I pace back and forth in Nickolas's office, we discussed Margot's death and we discussed about last night's incident.

Iris told me she couldn't fall pregnant but she did, a miracle from god? Maybe, what did I do with that? I gave it a fucking kick because I am careless.

Fucking idiot.

It didn't hurt more when I heard that Margot was murdered.

She was murdered by one of her one nightstands and I couldn't care less, Iris falling pregnant In the first place surprised me even more, and the the fact that she could have carried it perfectly fine with the right amount of medical help and no stress.
The stress and the fact she was scared to death was the cause of losing our child.

Fuck.

"It was God's plan son, learn to accept it and move on, just take care of each other and take care of the one child that now is in your hands, worry about another child in the future." He said and I stopped to think, Dahlia, I'm her only relative and legal guardian now.

"True, but how am I going to ever take her guilt? She's going to beat herself up for that." I finally sit down and take a break, I'm exhausted, it's been so long without sleep and barely any food. The only thing I'm content about is that Iris is sleeping and eating, Dahlia is here as well, she still doesn't know what happened to her mother and I am willing to lie to her because I'm not traumatizing her too.

I am never forging myself for doing this to Iris.

I ruined her.

...

"I'm sorry." She apologized weakly, her voice threatening to break, I pulled her in my arms to reassure her I'm she shouldn't be sorry and that it wasn't her fault at all.
"I didn't know I was pregnant, ten weeks and besides the mood swings and the pain there were no signs." She continued and I kept caressing her head.

We did an exam at the doctor to check if everything in her was good and they confirmed everything was fine. They did a thorough check and after let us know that she might have been ten to eleven weeks pregnant.
Iris of course didn't take that well, she was still very emotional and the guilt didn't want to let go of her.
It broke me to see her so sad but telling her it's going to be alright wasn't enough.

"Mommy?" Dahlia came out of nowhere and almost startled Iris but I rubbed her back to make sure she knew she was going to be alright.