Not just lust

Tuesday

It's like a switch flipped with Sammy. He wasn't the same after the weekend. And I was concerned because was a really seeing the real side of him? I mean I thought so it had been a good month of official dating. That's enough time to get to Know a person. But not on Tuesday.
"Abbie lets goo you take way to fucking long"
"Samuel" I said "patience"
We headed out the door for a business party or at least he told me it would be all official.
We got there and it was a club...strange but I didn't agrue, we walked in and Nate offered us some joints. Sammy took one and was smoking and got wasted I'm like the first two minutes. I saw some friends I knew and joined them we took a shot and them just talked. Sammy came up to me with two joints and forcefully tried to put one in my mout.
"Sammy stop I don't want one"
"Come on let loose I call it my fun stick"
"Good for you Sam, but I'm fine the way I am"
"Fine be a buzz kill bitch" he laughed.
"Sam what the hell?" I said kind of surprised.
"Abbie calm your ass it's a joke"
"Well you should treat your girlfriend better then that" I said
"Come on your just a side hoe"
"Screw you" I said AMD spilled my drink on his shirt and stormed out of the club so fast. And unlike how When we met he wasn't chasing after Me. And he never did in fact. I realized I'm not in a god damn fairy tale and maybe this didn't mean anything. Maybe it was just lust.
We're opposites.

I ran inside and I wasn't sad enough to cry in fact I don't think I was even sad. I just was angry. Mad to be called a buzz kill again. And it's not even that I'm a buzz kill it's that I know what I want In life or at least the woman I want to be and I'm not going to find that in partying and getting wasted every night. Why is it that I always let myself get surrounded by people that don't like the same things as me, it's only ever put me through hell.

I walked into my bedroom slipped out of my clothes and into an oversized t shirt. Washed my face and put on some Disney channel. Because honestly what's better then that? Yeah I felt sick to my stomach because I didn't know where we were going to stand and he was my everything. And they always say when your drunk the secrets come out so I guess I was just a side hoe?