Not just lust

Breaking up is hard to do

1 week & Three days I have been ignoring all texts and calls from Sammy. Stopped posting, liking or any type of activeness on social media. And have been dodging every place he likes to usually go. No parties just returning to work since it's the last week until summer. I know you guys that at one point I have to talk to him and you probably think I'm over reacting but it's not just that he drunkenly called me a side hoe AMD a bull kill butch but that i keep reminding myself that maybe it was lust AMD that every time I look at his face I try to hide the smile and sparkle in my eye because I can't I just can't be with a guy like Sammy. We want different things and were total opposites.
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"Abbie seriously please please come on a little lunch date with me it's well needed?" Casey said "you've been so distant since the one might with Sammy"
"I know I'm sorry cas....but what if sammys there?"
"ABBIE WERE GOING AND THATS FINAL. BE READY IM 20"
shit fine. I grabbed some ripped black jeans and my Nike shirt with Nike zip up and put my hair in a messy bun. Today is not my day to impress. I know the whole world is going crazy asking if we're still together and I can't handle the paradoxical either. We called am über and went to urth of course the most common place ever😭. We got out and paparazzi were yelling dumb shit but we just ignored it. We ate. And left. I would try and make that more exciting but it wasn't that's how boring it was. Soon everything will die down and I'll become a nobody again and live life without Sammy. I got home and got off the elevator to find Sammy knocking on the door.
"U, Sammy I'm right here do u need something?"
"An explanation would be nice as to why you don't answer my calls"
"You called me your side hoe, lied about the business party, and a buzzkill bitch" I said exhausted,
"Abbie I had no idea I was so wasted I bet I didn't mean it..."
"That's the thing Sammy...you did mean it. Your an honest drunk. So you fucking meant it".
"Abbie I do care about you"
"But that's not enough. We're so strongly felt about the things we want in life so when there so different we break and go into our different lifestyle...me the one who settles down with a career and family and you the crazy lifestyle wild bad boy artist".
"Abbie stop I'm gonna be sick..."
"It's the truth Sammy and it only disappoints so when I dot reply you know the reason why...I'm tired of feeling this way so maybe you shouldn't come back".
Tears pecked his eyes I could see it. He looks down trying to act tough but he can't help but swallow his pride and walk away.
So that's it.
It's over.
No goodbyes no last kiss no happy ending. That's love....or more like lust.