The Christian Love

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It's currently the next day and I've finally decided to meet up with her
Am I scared? I'm flipping terrified, but I've never felt more eager to get an answer, to know what happened all Those years ago .
As I walk down the stairs I'm attacked with questions
Kendra expressed her concern, "I can sense that you are feeling anxious. Are you sure you want to do this?"
Isabella asked some questions, "How did you find her? Where are you meeting her?" Isabella has a way of being curious and supportive at the same time.
I revealed the thoughts controlling my mind, "I'm feeling scared about what I might find out, but I feel that I need to do this. I found her on Instagram and messaged her."

Kendra tried to understand my feelings, "It seems like you are worried about what you might hear right?"
"Yes," I replied.
Isabella lightened the mood with a joke, "So when I do this, you call me a stalker or a world-class detective. I guess it depends on who is doing the investigating."
Suddenly, I expressed my fear, "What if I find out that I'm responsible for her running away or faking her death?"
Isabella offered her support, "It's ok to feel that way. Remember, you are doing something that you never thought you would be doing."
She's got a point for once .
Never in a million years did I think I would go out my way and look for answerable.

After, my talk with the girls I get into my car and I feel a tear rolling down my cheek but I wipe it away as quickly as possible .As I leave the drive I start playing my Spotify playlist and I start to feel much calmer
J. Monty
Larell
MARV
All the greats...
While driving my brain goes into the deep thoughts it normally does when I'm stressed .It took me a while to comprehend the amount of pain and grief that I've been building up over the years, the number of times I've cried myself to sleep, all the times I've blamed myself for not dragging her into the same car as me ,if I did drag her , she would still be alive and I would have been able to share all my goal and achievements with her. now she isn't dead it was just  a grief full of lies .I have to accept that she's alive and breathing the same oxygen as me, not in a Bad way of course but in a sense of pain.

As I arrive at the location where we said we would meet and I can see her from a distance.
My heart is racing but i have to get it together

Once I reach her I tap her shoulder and we just remain in silence and making eye contact

her eyes are just filled with pain,struggles and lies

I decided to break the silence since it was killing me

" Hey," I said eager to know why
"Hey wait, " Tinashe said
" explain " I said jumping right to the point not wanting to wait another second

" the night after prom I got in the taxi as you saw and halfway through my journey a truck came zooming at us, obviously we got hit I was on the ground, and then when my eyes started to flutter open I saw someone, someone,we know, " Tinashe said taking a breath
"Who," I said with full-on curiosity
"Stella from primary "

Stella hated us with every bone in our body, she hated how we looked, how we acted, and how we spoke even us breathing she hated But I never knew why she hated us this much to hurt Tinashe in a car accident
Wait.
I was in an accident
" Isaiah, Elijah and I were involved in a car accident a while back, but we never knew who did it," I said
" it must be her," Tinashe said
We stared in silence not knowing what to say next
"Faith, I want to apologize for all the pain I've caused you all these years; for showing up this late " Tinashe said with a tears slipping out one by one

This girl will forever be my best friend she was there for everything, my highs and lows

" it's ok I forgive u, you are my best friend after all," I said with a laugh while she just smiled

" you need to speak to Isaiah when he found out about your 'death' he cried a river ,his heart was broken he didn't leave his room until 4 months after your death and funeral, " I said

As much as I've shared a sense of pain I know Isaiah shared even worse, he had his whole future planned for the two of them, and then she disappears

" I've got to go I've got a night shift later," I said standing up and getting ready to leave

" ok that's fine," she said standing up
Before anything, I embrace her in a loving hug before saying our goodbyes
As I now know I wasn't fully involved in her "death" my heart can finally rest and beat a normal pace
As I get into the car I get a notification from Elijah asking me if I want to go on a walk tomorrow night .I haven't seen him since our date so i agree.As soon as I put my playlist in I began to drive off back home to get ready for my night shift