Is It Still You?

Thoughts

"Lea, I'm surprised to see you here.." He says with a slight smile on his lips.
I look at him without saying anything and for a split second I forget everything and everyone around me.
"Who is this, Lea?" I hear Chris ask me but I can't respond at the moment. Suddenly I hear footsteps behind Noah and a voice that sounds familiar...it's Tobias.
"Who is at the door, Noah? What takes you so-" Tobias looks at me and stops in his tracks.
Tobias: "Lea...I...didn't expect you to be here."
I look back and forth between Noah and him and finally I have the words to speak again.
"Yeah, I can see." I say in a serious tone and shake my head. I then turn around and walk away.
"Lea!" I hear Tobias yell behind me as he catches up to me.
Tobias: "Listen, I can explain." I turn around and face him.
Lea: "Why the heck is he even at your house?"
Tobias: "We just started talking and became friends.."
Lea: "He's my ex, Tobias...have you forgotten what he did to me?"
Tobias: "I know..he was a bad person and did terrible things but he changed..and learned from his mistakes."
Lea: "Good for you to know that."
Tobias: "I needed to talk to somebody..it was not really an easy situation for me okay?"
I look at him without saying anything but then I remember how much pain he must have felt.
"I understand...but I'm still not happy that you have catched up with my ex..." I say and cross my arms.
Tobias: "Yeah, I'm sorry..I didn't know where else to go..can we just please talk inside?"
I nod and we walk back to the door. The Triplets just look at me, asking if everything is okay. I nod back and signal them to go inside the house.
Once we are in, the three of them sit on the couch feeling slightly uncomfortable.
Tobias: "So can we go upstairs to talk...alone?" He looks at me and waits for an answer.
I look at the Triplets, all three of them give me a look and wait for my decision ready to come with me if I need help. I look back at Tobias and nod at him. Noah walks into the living room and looks at the Triplets and then at me, smiling slightly.
Noah: "Alright..I guess it's time to meet new people." He smiles and sits down next to the couch. Chris and Matt glare at each other, not happy with the situation at all. While they all try to make themselves comfortable, me and Tobias walk upstairs in his room.
He closes the door behind him and silence fills the room until Tobias starts to speak.
Tobias: "Okay...listen to me first. I left the USA without saying something and I know it wasn't right, but I couldn't stay any longer in this house after everything that had happened. I like you a lot and it was not easy to understand that you will never like me the same way I do. I had to go and clear up my mind, so I flew back home. All of this hurt me so much and I didn't know what to, especially not what to feel. I was angry and sad at the same time and needed someone to talk about everything. I randomly met Noah in the store and we started talking. I saw that he changed and I just told him everything, about my feelings for you and the situation with the boys. He understood me...it felt good to say what was on my mind and to have someone who actually understands. I never thought you would fly to Italy and stand in front of my door...because I thought you wouldn't care."
Lea: "Wouldn't care? I care a lot about you Tobias, you are my best friend. Once I saw that you are gone, I instantly got ready and flew to your house with the next airplane."
Tobias slightly smiles when he hears me saying that.
"I know that I hurt you..and that it wasn't easy at all but you have to understand how hard it is for me. You guys like me and I don't want to hurt your guys's feelings. I'm trapped in this situation because I will always hurt someone, if I want to or not. I have to choose one day if it's someone of you or someone completely different. I hate myself for all of this but I'm also just a human who has to go through everything at once. I have mixed feeling about all of you and it's scary to me but I can't help it either." I say and look at him.
Tobias: "Hey...I understand you. It's not easy for all of us..." He walks up to me and hugs me.
I hug him back and sigh into his chest. Once he lets go of me, I look at him.
Lea: "I'm happy that we had the chance to talk"
"Me too." He says and smiles at me.
Lea: "How are you feeling?"
"A lot better now. It was reassuring to tell you all of this...thank you."
Lea: "No need to say. Thank you for letting me in and telling me about your thoughts."
"Of course." He nods and hugs me again. I close my eyes and smile, feeling happiness in my chest.

Next part is on the way...🤫