What To Tell You If I Already Lost You [L.S]

two days until the wedding

Two days until the wedding.

> THIS LOVE <

Louis.

I can't stop thinking about you.
Now more than ever.

Now that I felt your lips on mine again. Now that you told me you loved me.

Not just once, but in that letter too.

Your letter that I read over and over until it was damped in tears.

Did you really think I wasn't going to reply after that?
Well, you're wrong.

I could go on and on writing, and I will.

Even more now that your wedding is just around the corner, and that I can tell by the letter you sent that he's not for you.

I've been trying to convince myself during the past months that you had found love. That you loved Eric more than you loved me.
That he could give you everything you were looking for.

But clearly, it is not like that.

Something brought you back to me. Something made you send that invitation in the first place.

Just when I was letting my grip on you go, you showed up back again.
Something was telling you you were making a mistake, Lou. Don't you see it?

Are you really going to marry someone who just makes you feel fine? Comfortable?
Really?

Are you being fair to your heart? Are you being fair to Eric's?

Maybe Niall was right all along, and I need to get you back.
Maybe I needed to step up and save you from making the wrong decision.

You have a love so good, so deep, so alive, right in front of your eyes. A love that was buried deep and now came back with all force.
We have the potential to be everything you ever wanted. I have the potential to be what you need, Lou.

Why don't you come back to me?

Our love left a permanent mark in both of us. Our love is strong and unwilling to give up.

I still feel you in my embrace, burning with desire to touch you and hold you closer.
I kissed you, and I don't regret it, because you kissed me back even more earnestly. You smiled just like when we were young, I saw it in your eyes.

Then I watched you leave, and you were gone yet again.

You ran.
But you'll come back to what you need in the end.

And we both know that's me.