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27.

Nina's pov

I got woken up by a very familiar face.

- kris? What are you doing here, what time is it?

-  jan spotted you over here and wanted to come to you but bojan said either that or he's out of the band, so I promised I would go check on you.

- he really don't care about me anymore does he? Not bojan or jan.

- jan cares, he cares so much but he's just put in a very hard situation and he don't know what's the right or wrong thing to do. But I just wanted to make sure you are okey, but I need to go cause our plane leaves soon. So text me when you get back home okey?

- yea sure, bye.

I checked my phone to see what the clock was. It was a little over 1pm and the boarding to the plane opens at 4.30pm. I decided to go through all the security now so I have that done and then I would buy something to eat. Cause I still haven't eaten since before yesterday's gig so I was starving.

I got through security with no problem and I found a Mc Donald's to eat at. I ordered some food and went to look for a place to sit at. I found an empty table in a corner and went to sit down.

Last time I ate at a mc Donald's I was with the band. That was the first time I had felt something between me and Jan. I remembered how I had caught him staring at me multiple times.

- here's your food, are you okey hun?

- yea sorry, I'm fine thank you.

I had been so lost in my own head I hadn't noticed the tears streaming down my face. How am I gonna be able to live knowing I have no one left? I guess I have kris, but also not really. Bojan wouldn't allow that anymore if he knew. And I refuse to have this situation repeat itself.

I had finished my food and I walked over to my gate cause boarding starts in a few minutes. I got into the plane and I had luckily gotten myself a window seat. I sat down and put on my Spotify playlist. And of course joker out was the first thing that had to stream. I give up, I had heard a few seconds of their song and I was yet again a crying mess. I guess that a good thing is that I'm now distracted from thinking about the incident at the club, but to be honest I don't think this is any better. My biggest fear had come to reality. I'm alone, all alone. Not even my brother is there anymore.

The plane had just landed and I was now back in Slovenia. And all I could think about was all the memories I had made here with all my best friends. I got out of the airport and decided to walk home instead of a taxi cause I really need to clear my head. It's only like 30 minutes anyways.

I got back to my apartment and I unpacked all my stuff and went into to my shower to take a long shower. I never wanna leave the shower, I never wanna leave this home. Or maybe that's exactly what I need to do. Maybe I need to move to the other side of the planet to be able to move on with my life. Leave every memory behind and just start fresh. But then where am I supposed to get that money? I don't have a job anymore. I'll most likely end up on the streets where I'll end up killed.

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