𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 | 𝐉𝐚𝐧 𝐏𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐡

29.

Nina's POV

- where are we going?

- to the studio, the others are there too. And don't worry not bojan.

I guess that's fine, it's not like I have much to say about it anyway. But I'm not gonna lie I'm a little nervous about meeting them all when I'm looking like this. And especially kris after him leaving me on read after my last message.

- come on we are here.

- do I have to? I really don't want to go in there. Can't I just go back home and we'll both just forget about this every happening?

- stop talking nonsense, you're coming.

He gently grabbed my head and looked at me with those big dark brown puppy eyes, to make sure I was okey. Damn he's cute, how can I say no? We walked up to the studio and Jan slowly opened the door.

- I kinda forgot about buying something to drink but I found someone special instead.

Everyone's head turned towards us. I saw how they all looked at me with fear in their eyes. I know I look horrible but come on do they have to stare at me like that?

- oh god what happens to you Nina?

Kris ran up to me and grabbed my face looking carefully at me before pulling me into a tight hug.

- are you okey? I missed you. I'm so sorry for not answering you but bojan kind of saw it and he made sure I didn't answer.

I just looked at him, I didn't know what to say or do. I just stood there like a fool.

- okey so we need to get bojan here. Like right now, he needs to know about her current state, cause if I leave her in this state I don't think she would be stay alive for much longer. And I don't think he would let his own sister die, right?

- no no no Jan please don't. Trust me, if you have betrayed him once it's over. For good.

He didn't listen at all and I saw him picking up his phone and started writing something. I started panicking big time when Jan said he is on his way here. What am I supposed to do? He will be so mad over the fact that I'm still here.

- where's the toilet? I need to go.

- I'll show you.

- no it's fine Jan you could just tell me.

- Nina I do not trust that you will not try and run away from here or hurt yourself if I let you go alone.

- fine whatever I'll just stay here.

A few minutes later I heard someone opening the door and I saw my brother walking into the room, and the first thing he saw was me. He stared at me for a quite long time before saying something and it freaked me out.

- what happened to you?

- I don't know, maybe I lost my whole life and don't feel like it's necessary to keep going.

- you, you don't look like you. You look dead. Oh god, I did this to you? Fuck. I'm supposed to be your brother, your family. God I'm so sorry Nina.

I saw how tears started to spill out of his eyes while he stood there stuttering. He walked over to me and sat down on his knees right in front of me.

- please let me help you. Please forgive me.

He was now having a full on breakdown. And I wasn't able to get a word out. Did he actually forgive me?

- please say something.

He looked at me deep into the eyes with tears still falling down his cheeks. I nodded a little still not able to speak. I grabbed his hand off of my leg and he quickly stood up. I jumped into his arms and started crying like a little baby. I had my brother back, that's the only thing that matters. I've missed this, being able to hug him. I can't even remember last time I did and it felt incredible. There we was in each other's arms sobbing.

He broke the hug and grabbed my face and looked me straight in the eyes, wiping away the tears left on my cheeks with his thumb.

- I don't expect you to immediately forgive me, cause I know I've fucked up big time. But please think about it and when you have decided just know I'm here for you and I wanna help you get back on track again.

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