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Chapter 42 _ Is this the beginning?
{Chapter 196 – There’s a Dragon? (1)
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Of course.
“So annoying.”
Cale Henituse had spread this rumor himself.
Cale was currently using his bedroom in the castle as his office.
He leaned back on a comfortable couch and started to speak.
“Young master Eric Wheelsman should be doing well, right?”
“I’m sure he is.”
Cale looked toward the smiling Ron and couldn’t help but think that he was a scary old man. As for himself, he was a bad person.}
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"...it's worrying how bad he sees himself"
"Seriously…"
How bad can a person think they are? Okay, fine, everyone must think at some point in their life, "Wow, I think I'm a good person" or "Wow, I think maybe I'm not as good as I thought." It's relative. It's something more philosophical, something that comes almost unconsciously to your mind. It's like those questions that pop into your mind when you're alone and in silence: "Who am I really?", "What was the beginning? God? Science? Magic?" or even, "What is my purpose here?".
This is philosophical knowledge. Knowledge that many have unconsciously, because they do not realize that this type of rhetorical question is a type of knowledge.
But pulling the line of thought towards this specific knowledge, another more enigmatic question arises that people might even think about at a glance and not even pay attention to: how good of a person do I think I am?
This unconscious question can be the beginning of a great wave of thoughts about what kind of person you are. And also, about how you see yourself.
Okay, insecurity is a barrier that appears to prevent you from acting out of fear of a given thing. But what about the rest? The hateful thoughts? Out of disgust? Shyness? Or, in this case, what makes a person believe that they are a bad person?
What made this man say he was a bad person?
Cale* doesn't understand this, no, he really doesn't. He even feels the urge to look at his older doppelganger – who is in another body now – to confirm whether or not he also understands this line of thoughts that Cale has.
Is he, Cale Hero-Savior-Holder of the fragile Henituse, a bad person? Does he consider himself bad? Really?
No chances!
And the worst part of this: what is the parameter for a bad person for Cale?
For Cale*, Clopeh Sekka* is a bad person, a scum. But for Cale, it seems not. Cale has no problems dealing with Clopeh even after the attack on Henituse State. So in that case, Clopeh isn't considered bad in Cale's regards? Even after trying to kill people and attacking his people and family, he still forgave Clopeh.
But then another doubt arises: he managed to forgive Clopeh and act normal with him. But can't he forgive himself and consider himself a good person?
How broken does that make you? How fragile is he to think of himself like that?
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