The Golden Ring • ChanBaek | ENG

[CHAPTER 2. 059]

     I rolled over to my stomach in agony. Jaebum was right because after he was done with me, I couldn't stand up no matter how hard I tried, so he quickly cleaned me up as much as he could, changed the covers, put the used ones by the door, and now he's taking a shower.

I really hope we weren't so loud that everyone outside heard us, because, one, that would be really bad, two.. Chanyeol was also playing there with the others, I really don't want him to hear me while I'm having 'fun' with someone else.

I really don't know what to do, I haven't even had a chance to talk to Yeol, and I can't even look him in the eye, but I can feel everyone's eyes on me, like they're judging me or something, just because me and Jaebum are happy together.. But God, this is not easy!

The little "kiss" I had with that stranger today really made me realize how much I love both of them and I can't bear to lose either of them, but what should I do now?

It seems like I'm dating Jae, I kiss him in front of everyone without a problem, while I can only do things with Yeol in secret.

Damn, I can't make up my mind!

Maybe I should really ask Kibum what he thinks about this... I know he doesn't really want to get involved and wants me to decide this for myself, but no matter how much time I spend thinking, I'm getting more confused and I can't afford to let all three of us suffer because of me .

But even if I choose, what will happen to the other? Let's say I stay with Jae.. because he makes me happy, we've never fought, although sometimes I'd like to bite his head off because of his bullshit of a humor, I feel good with him, but how would Yeol react? Would he understand? Would he be mad? Well he shouldn't have left me then and now I could be his without any problems!

"Wow.."

At Kibum's voice, I immediately turned on my back to cover my nakedness and stared at him with huge eyes as he walked to the side of the bed, leaned against the wall and slid down to the floor, pulled his knees up to his chest and hugged his legs with a loud sigh.

I waited for a little while to see if he would speak on his own or something, but nothing, but when I wanted to speak, Jae came out of the bathroom, thank God he was wearing underwear and drying his hair with a towel, but when he saw my best friend sitting on the floor, he gave him a confused look.

"You can go out," the blonde man grinned at him.

"Weren't you supposed to-?"

"I wasn't supposed to do anything, bye, " he pointed towards the door. Jae looked at me questioningly and I just shrugged my shoulders, because I won't get involved, Kibum has the last word, not me.

Sighing in frustration, Jaebum grabbed his things he threw on the floor and grumbled while walking out of the room, and I turned my gaze back to Kibum on the floor.

"What are you even doing here? Aren't you supposed to be enjoying yourself under the... a- what was his name?"

"Minho," he muttered.

"Ah, so.. shouldn't you be fucking with him? Or was it only a one round quicky? I thought you were starving for cock," I made myself more comfortable, still holding the blanket over me. I didn't want to talk to him in this situation, but since we're here, why not?

"Mhm.. he was very cute and all.. but I couldn't sleep with him.. " he pouted. "As we collapsed on the bed, all I could think was that I wish Seunghyun was there with me... I still love him and I can't... ugh," he ran his fingers through his blond's locks. "Sometimes I feel like I don't even deserve love. As dramatic as it sounds, and I know I shouldn't give up just yet, I just keep thinking that I've messed up twice already. Minjun just used me, and while Seunghyun loved me, I just suffered with him. On top of that, I can't even have sex with a handsome and nice guy. How pathetic am I?" he rolled his eyes.