surviving her - baxter radic

fighting and - 7

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"I'm so sorry."
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I can't confront my sister yet, everyone's up, tense and getting into their wetsuits.

I ended up sleeping with Poppy on the beach, I saw her go there and Bax didn't say anything about it. I laid with her as she cried and told me everything about the night I missed.

I now sit on the beach, looking out at all my friends in the water. The sun's out but a light breeze is still present this early morning.

Last night was too much. I was so comfortable then so fucking confused. I can't believe we caught Ari sneaking out.

I'm so nervous and in my head about it all. I know we all hate Wren... but she's still with Ari. We do not need a repeat of Rory and Lindsay from Gilmore girls.

By the time everyone's done, i've snapped a few photos, soaking up the sun. Bax stands over me, blocking the sun and shaking his hair out over me.

Drops of water land on me, I wipe my face and laugh a bit. He grabs my hand and pulls me up, "How's you against Ari?" I slip my hands in the pocket of his jacket.

Bax shrugs, "He's good, mind somewhere else today though..." We look over to Ari who's talking to Wren then back at each other.

"You gonna tell her?"

He shakes his head, "That's for Goldie to figure out."

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Summer makes me go back to Ari's, "Trust me this is the last place I wanna be either, but we literally need a place to sleep." I sigh, staying with Poppy is great! Sum is just dramatic.

My mom is sitting outside, on the phone like always. I try to sneak by but she hangs up and calls us over, "Girls!"

I frown and turn, "What?"

She sighs, "We need to talk..." she points to the outside couch facing her. We both sit hesitantly, "I'm so sorry, for everything."

I make a face, "No you're not. You just want to go back to controlling us."

"No- I want us to be a family again. You have to know I meant nothing I said to you Gracie." I cross my arms, "I was angry, we all have the same temper-"

"You said we ruined your life!" I snap back.

"I didn't mean it. Look..." She leans over and takes our hands, "I know you think I hate it here..." she takes a deep breath, "But seeing you two live your best lives here made all those other bad memories be replaced. I don't talk about your father much..." she looks at the dirt, then to us.

"Mom you don't-" Summer starts but is quickly cut off.

"Yes, I do. He was a bad boy, everyone saw my change in surfing and behavior. But he was sweet to me. We were in love for a year, then I got pregnant." I look away from her, "I was so excited, I thought I wouldn't be. A kid obviously wasn't in the plan for me. I was at my prime in surfing! But when I told him, he was just as excited."

"So where is he now, huh?" I look back to her.

"The next day, I woke up in his little shack. There was no one there... I saw a sticky note on my surfboard...

I can't do this.

... That's all it read, so it left me with a lot of emotions. Then I found out I would have twins!" she laughs a bit, "My real family here helped me." She nods, "You two are the greatest joy in my life. You gave me the love I needed and I'm so sorry if I ever did anything less for you. We've had our rough patches, but this place really pulls me back in." a tear rolls down her face. I barely see my mother cry.