The Princess's Affection

Chapter Nineteen

Bianca Shiola's POV

Hearing Princess masturbate and call my name made me wet for the first time. I had to control myself and not let my horniness cloud my judgement. I was so horny that I brought my fingers to my cunt and stroked it.

Fuck, this feels so good, but I brought my fingers up and found my fingers glistening with my wetness. I have never done such things before, but why would I do it now? I felt guilty about touching myself. I didn't know what came over me to begin with touching myself or fingering my cunt.

I laid down on the bed and thought about my feelings towards Princess, whether they were genuine or not. I began falling more deeply in love with Princess as several months passed, began liking her more than a friend, and stopped viewing her as a friend. I didn't know what was wrong with me, and I didn't want to offend God for all that He had done. But my heart had a different idea than what my brain had in stock and kept reminding me that what I was doing was wrong.

Because when God created humanity, He made one man and one woman to be in love, not in reverse. And that was the main reason why He had destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah. I begged God for His understanding and forgiveness and to follow my heart.

She was much more than I wanted and better than James. I know that I had an abuse experience that he caused, but Princess had always been there for me despite all that I have done to her. She showed me unconditional love and affection that I didn't deserve.

I became jealous of her hanging out with Emilie, but I was too afraid to accept that I had genuine feelings for her. I deeply liked her, and I felt safe around her, but I was scared that she would reveal her true self, and then everything crumbled.

I thought all through the night about whether or not I should confess my feelings to her, but I didn't know what to do that because I was truly scared of confessing my feelings to her. So, I decided on a conclusion that I wouldn't tell her unless it was at my own given pace rather than rushing into things that I didn't want to later regret.

Princess and I reconciled, and I apologised to Emilie for my actions towards her, and she made up with me. While we visited places that were recommended by my therapist, I fell ill one day after I played in the rain with Princess and Emilie. I was so seriously ill that I had moved into Princess's room while she took care of me.

The sickness took a whole lot from me as I lost weight and was on serious medications. I eventually got healed after two weeks, as I was diagnosed with high fever and typhoid fever in my system. The doctor said that it was due to the lack of good nutrition and water that had stayed in my body for so long and that when I changed my environment, that was what caused the illness.

Princess became a mother hawk and watched me all night long, and sometimes she managed to rest and sleep for a while before resuming her role. Emilie had gone back to her husband's home, who I found out was happily married with kids. You couldn't imagine the embarrassment that I faced that day.

And one day, while I was in bed with Princess, laughing and talking about what we were saying to each other, I kept staring at Princess's beautiful eyes, how she looked, and her lips while she kept talking and smiling at what she was talking about. I leaned over and kissed her on the lips, and she responded immediately to the kiss. But before going further, she stopped and looked at me for a brief second to see if the kiss that I had given was real.

I hid my face after I had done that, too embarrassed to look her in the eyes. But Princess used her hands to hold up my face so that I could look at her in the eyes.

You are so beautiful when you blush from how embarrassed you are after kissing me. You have the sweetest taste, as you kissed me hard on the lips, and baby, I wouldn't deny it if we did that again.

You know, kitten, that you kissing me now shows that you like me more than you pretend not to. And now, you are mine, and you can't kiss anybody again unless...

And Princess realised that she was about to say something but kept mute. When I asked her what she had wanted to say, she refused to talk but promised that when the right time came,  she would say it.

I just accepted that she would never say a word and held her hand in mine. And for the first time ever, I felt safer than before. Maybe, it is because I genuinely liked her and wanted to see how far it goes from here. And we just stared at each other with no words spoken, only listening to the sequence of our beating hearts.

Princess leaned in, pecked my forehead, and nuzzled her nose on my cheeks as she began kissing me on the cheeks, the back of my hands, and my lips.

You're really beautiful, Bianca, and thank you for loving and giving me a chance. I promise that I will always protect you, show you how much you mean to me, cherish you, treat you as my equal, honour, respect, and love you. I promise you that all these I will always do, because I love you, Bianca, so fucking much.

You don't need to say you love me when you haven't made a decision or you feel pressured into saying it. She confessed to me that she was very happy that I liked her a lot and no longer viewed her as a friend. She pecked on my forehead and my whole face as we continued our conversation about everything.

That means we are now officially girlfriend and girlfriend right kitten, she excitedly asked me.

Yes, we are, I told her as I laughed at her childish behaviour towards me accepting her as my girlfriend.

And she began kissing me all over my face again, and before she bent over, and kissed me hard on the lips. I wrapped my arms around her neck as our tongues kissed each other passionately. By the time we were done kissing, my lips were swollen, my hair was scattered, and I was breathing so heavily due to the passionate kiss that we had exchanged.

I came closer to her body and cuddled with Princess as she stroked my hair and hips before kissing my hairline again. She was smiling more than ever before, and we just couldn't help it in keeping our hands off each other.

I think this was the beginning of a new relationship, and I hoped for a better future with her, not one that would kill me or make me miserable than I was already in before I had fully recovered from it.

I like you so much. I shyly confessed to her, and she snuggled closer to me, breathing in my scent, and whispered how much she loved me. I just enjoyed being in her presence and the arms of love that she gave me for free and that I couldn't even imagine having one day in my life. I told myself that I needed to get over this but this time, offering Princess a chance to prove herself to me.