The Princess's Affection

Chapter Thirty- Nine

Bianca Shiola's POV

The cab driver finally dropped us off as we removed all loads and luggage from the cab boot into the house. As soon as we got in, we closed and locked the door before going to our various rooms with our stuff. Just so you know, I had given each of them their personal rooms.

I went into the room that had memories of everything, looking at her pictures littered across the room with those of the one that was taken with us together. Seeing it brought horrible memories and tears from my eyes, as I felt like the world was against me and had given me a sad ending in my story as the main character.

I snuggled into the sheets that smelled like hers and didn't know when I had slept. I felt at peace and slept like a baby, more than I had done in the past few days. I missed her badly and just wanted to see a glimpse of her, her smile, and everything that calls out her name. I was obsessed with her and longed for her and her affection.

Why can't I have my happy ending, as I thought, staring at the ceiling? I can't believe that all this happened to me in just one week of staying at my parents' house. I lost myself and Princess in the process, and I felt stupid about everything, as if I were handicapped for not being able to understand what she said.

I couldn't believe that I had sex with a sinner whom my parents had warned me about. Realising that my soul was tainted should have made me feel sad, but no, it didn't. I was beyond happy about everything, including the way Princess had fucked me, treated me like royalty, and the way she always rocked my boats. I couldn't ask for a better partner than her, as she was more to me than anyone else.

I couldn't see myself being with someone else and not her. No, it cannot happen, as my heart felt empty without her. I placed my hand on my chest as I felt my empty heart beating for only her.

I wanted her badly and wanted her back into my life, as my life felt so empty without her being close to me. I wanted to reach out and touch her so I could feel her touch and realise that all this is just a dream and nothing more than a dream. I looked at my wristwatch and realised that it was time to eat breakfast, as I had woken up in the earliest of the morning hours and couldn't sleep at all.

This kept happening when I would go to sleep early and wake up early, as I couldn't sleep at those particular hours of the day. I would toss and turn all night long and think about the only person who held my heart in her hands.

I quickly went into my room and had my bath, as well as brushing my teeth, before heading downstairs to join my siblings for breakfast. While I came downstairs, I sat on the chair and quietly ate my food as I held myself up to not cry due to the memories that I had here.

When I would eat breakfast with her and the time I had sex on the kitchen counter, I blushed as I remembered that. Or all the times we cooked together in the kitchen, or the times when she prepared food for me. So many memories, as I didn't realise that I had a tear rolling down my face.

I am sorry; I told my sister and brother. I didn't mean to make you worry; don't mind me that much.

And they both looked at each other with worries in their eyes as they wanted to speak. I urged them that I was fine and began eating my food to my satisfaction so as not to make them more worried as they were about me.

After eating, I asked them both when they would be leaving for school, as I didn't want them to miss out while trying to help me with my own miserable life. I wanted them to be happy and go explore the world while I sorted out how to find Princess.

Days passed as my siblings tried all they could to make me laugh and feel a little bit better before their departure to school. We went shopping, as I bought them something to use for their schooling for a while before they got back home.

On the day of their trip back to school, they looked at me with worried looks in their eyes, but I assured them that I would be fine and that if I needed their help, I would let them know. So, I shushed them off to enter the sienna we booked in order to take them back to school.

With much persuasion from my end, they finally gave up and left the house. Before I entered, I was closing and locking the door behind me and crying as I would miss them. They were what was holding me from breaking down and going crazy, thereby losing the only sanity that I had left.

I did what an insane person would do, and that was to start shouting Princess's name like she was present with me.

Princess, I know that you can see me, but I want you back in my life, as I can't leave without you. I am going crazy every fucking time, and I want you so badly in my life. Just please come back, as we can sort out our problems and differences, and start over again if you want. But if you don't come in the next few minutes, I will kill myself, and I know that you don't want that, baby.

And she didn't answer, so I went into the kitchen and started searching for the cabinet that kept all the knives in there. So, I took one of them as I moved forward, as to see me commit a sin if that meant bringing her back to me. My only option was for her to realise that I was everything to her and come back to me, if it meant me losing myself for her.

I accept that I was obsessed and madly in love with her. As I needed her like one needed oxygen. She was my everything and I was losing my sanity every second of the day, without her being in my life.

So, I took the knife to my stomach and shouted loudly. If you don't come out in one minute, I will stab myself, and I will never forgive you wherever I am when I have killed myself. You don't want blood stains from the one you love on your hands. Do you, darling?

As I was about to stab myself hard with the knife, she appeared in front of me and begged me not to kill myself.

I am here, baby, she said. I am present here, cupcakes, as you don't need to bother killing yourself now that I am here. I love you so much, and now that I know you do love me, there is no need for you to try to kill yourself. Please drop the knife down and kick it over to me so that I know that you are not truly going to die on me.

So, I broke down, dropping the knife and running over to her. As soon as I got closer to her, I kissed her passionately, trying to reminisce about her lips on me, as if it weren't a dream that I was truly kissing her.

When I pulled away from her, I asked her if this was a dream, and she smirked and said, What do you think?

I just rolled my eyes at her and wrapped my arms around her chest, laying my head on her shoulders, as she was taller than me.

I love you. I finally confessed to her, staring at her in the eyes.

What did you say? She asked me.

I love you so much, Princess, I honestly told her. I love you, and I couldn't imagine a day without you in my life.

Oh, baby, I am so happy right now that I can eat you up. I can't believe that you finally love me, and now that you love me, I am never leaving you ever again, she told me. I love you, baby, and I am really sorry for the way that I have hurt you so much. It broke my heart to have watched you, because I was foolish to have believed that you didn't need or want me but rather the man that your mother had asked you.

I am sorry, my love. She apologized. Would you find a way in your heart to forgive me? I am truly sorry for being the cause of your pain and tears.

You are forgiven, I told her. She carried me like a baby all the way to the room. I believed that this was a new start to our relationship.