RESPONDING TO HER LOVE

THE LIBRARY

"Don't study only to pass exam, but study wild in all areas. You don't know the knowledge that will save you in future time".

Queen POV

What's the essence of knowledge if it doesn't provide clarity and direction.

Time doesn't change anything if we don't work on the problem, it can only get worse.

I'm happy that I took the bull by the horn. No more waiting on my part. I've set the wheel moving, and allow nature to take its course.

"...The violent taketh it by force".

I didn't know what propelled me to sit with Ken earlier. Honestly, I can't explain it. My recent behaviours are not mine, they're shocking me. I guess, I can't hold the love-cough again. When you tune down your inhibition and unleash ur inner desires; the hidden identity, life will be so much fun. But, hope I will enjoy this new found freedom to the fullest? Hope I can handle the consequences of this choice I made, to pursue Ken?

A romance with Ken, the head and chairman of the supposedly timid and shy guys of our set. Cool, calm and collected. The future monks and priests. I can't help the smile on my face. It sounds childish to me, with the kind of personality I've built over the years for myself. Nothing is wrong in experiencing it all. Life is not balanced, so is the world.

Walking towards the Library just confirmed how stupid and infatuated I've gotten. Library is my least favourite place. I guess, I've to compromise again to validate my claim on him. He's definitely going to pay alot for making me feel like this.

How am not feeling embarrassed right now calls for emergency check up. A little self conscious adjustment, will mean something. Maybe, I ingested Ken for Love pill and my body is overdosed and can't handle the effect, which my wretched heart liked so much.
Someone should pinch me pls.

Am not the time to wait for a guy, but the control is long taken from me before the game started. My mind have been sounding alarm but am not paying attention. What could possibly go wrong. Stop the skepticism.

Patience...patience, rush will get you nowhere. We've accepted to get to the root of this infatuation once and for all. Guide your heart with the right amour, so you won't be defenseless and severly wounded after.

I entered the library. I greeted the Librarian, Mr. Austin, a very observant man. I smiled at few students that have stopped reading and are now staring at me. It's situations like this, that reminds me of my influence and popularity in school. I've always like the attention, to be in the center of the envy, admiration and love of both the junior and seniors alike, it's always thrilling. You feel powerful.

But today, I want to hide from them. I wish to be as another senior in the library, waiting for her boyfriend... Jeez, boyfriend! What the hell, Queen, is wrong with you?

Anyway, am not going to correct myself. "Where is Loveth". I muttered to myself, looking around. I've not stayed this long without thinking of my friend. How can Ken occupy my thought like this in short time. This is not a good sign.

I signed to myself, checked my time again for the twentieth time. What's taking him so long to come. Hope is not what am thinking. If he stood me up, I will burn him.

All the books that picked to read was boring, and my heart is feeling so heavy. I kept glancing at the door. I'm getting agitated and hate feeling pathetic. If only all this pairs of eyes watching my every move here will just stop. I've not felt so irritated like this, even in the refectory that I do hear the whistling and calling of my name, I dont usually hate it. I will just smile and ignore them.
I wanted to glare at this perverts and unserious students and tell them off.