RESPONDING TO HER LOVE

Acquitted

"That the law of attraction is stronger than my reality, it is the anchor of my conviction".

I've learnt faith. But, its not that strong to command change. Maybe its that slight doubt that always creep into my heart.
Nevertheless, I won't be discouraged easily. Its a trait that I admire about myself.

Before mid-term break, she got herself a boyfriend, which surprised me. How she was able to stay all this while without one. Well, if all the guys were scared like I was of rejection.
Now that I think of it. Many beautiful ladies are actually single because people assume they are taken already. Then, on their own part will feel so imbarrassed to admit it.
Smiles; I will stop thinking for everybody.
On P.E day, I stumbled on them together on the field...
"Why must it be them that will get my attention first, look at the students standing everywhere, Hmm?"

She's with this very handsome dude. You can guess why they are called the power couple. Michael, its the star player of our set; the SS1s. Great physique, I can give him that. I don't compare myself with anyone. We are different personality. He's a friend of Chris and I can't bad mouth him for no reason.

I am a quiet person doesn't mean I can't be dramatic sometimes.
With a straight face, I started walking towards them. I don't know why I feel like, I should show my face or act somehow..., forget it. I changed route but they have sighted me. They're not my friends to initiate greetings or anything, but the hugging stopped. Sadly, they fit together.

Looking at the kind of seniors we had in our first year, we've got a lot of talented and brave students looking forward to making the school proud. We've earned our respect. "The secret to the future is in the past," and we have experience and the mentality.

Our sitting arrangement in the shared classes have not changed. After the boyfriend talk, I was surprised that she would come and sit beside me. Who am I to complain. I guess she values her studies more than anything. Growing popularity before our eyes and smartness.

" Just, don't put in trouble".

When every guy wants to her you and you are handling it just fine...
"Many wanted but few are chosen, out of the few little help accepted," I laughed in my mind.

I'm getting distracted a lot this days, one minute I'm focused, the other, I'm thinking about her. I will tell what, she changed her perfume. This one is very feminine and intoxicating. I can't help leaning closer, wishing for the gentle breeze not to stop. One time, my brain was clouded with her scent. In the name of peering to copy, I invaded her personal space, her hair touching my face. I felt her mint breath on my face and....
Honestly, time froze for me. I muttered "Sorry" in her direction. She didn't respond. I faced my front and didn't bother to copy note again.
I always try my best to come before others and she would enter few minutes later. Now, I stopped to avoid silent treatment. Let me be the one that changed our sitting situation than her finding another sit partner, even if its her fellow female student.

Usually, after these classes, I would ask her few questions before leaving. That day, I walked out of the hall without looking back. The next class, I entered late. Someone else was sitting there with her. She didn't change her position to where most females were sitting. I stood in the back, leaning on a desk to copy.  It was very uncomfortable but I managed. It was me that chickened out when nobody was pursuing me.