Never Letting Go

Happy Birthday! And I Love You...?

I wake up to find someone’s arms wrapped around my waist and I freak out, I go to jump off the bed when I slip on a blanket and fall off the bed, smacking my head.

I sit up and rub my head, “Ow” I groan.  Kyle’s face appears over the side of the bed, he starts to laugh when he realises it’s me on the floor. “Come here you crazy girl.” I go and sit on the bed next to him, still rubbing my head.

“Why were you throwing yourself off the bed?” he stares at me questioningly, a smile hinting at the corner of his lips.

“Um I sort of woke up and your arms were around my waist and I forgot it was you so I freaked out and I fell off the bed…” I bite my lip and look at him; his tiny smile was replaced with a frown. I mimic his frown, “Why do you always frown whenever we get close? Can you tell me the things I shouldn’t do because I hate seeing you frown!” I open and close my fists in frustration, trying to get a grip on my emotions.

“No I can’t!  Because if I was to tell you everything you did that made me frown you would have to leave!” tears threaten my eyes, my emotions are even harder to keep control of now.

I get off the bed and run outside into the pouring rain. “Darci!” Kyle calls after me, he’s most likely following me.

I climb up the tree, stopping once I reached the top. Just as I suspected, Kyle was following me and he was coming up the tree. “I thought you wanted me to leave since I’m causing you so many problems!” Tears start rolling down my cheeks.

Kyle’s face is now centimetres away from mine. “I didn’t mean it like that; you know I would never want you to leave.” He whispers. I can smell the damp wood scent that sticks to his clothes.

I turn my face away from his, “Then what did you mean? I would be careful when explaining this if I was you Kyle” I snap at him, more tears running down my cheeks.

He holds my face softly, forcing me to look at him. “You would have to stop smiling that cute smile when you’re about to get into mischief, you would have to stop being so confident in who you are, you couldn’t be happy, you wouldn’t be able to bite your lip or run your fingers through your hair, you would never be able to laugh your amazing laugh again or open your eyes, you would have to be mute to hide your soothing voice, you couldn’t help anyone, your free spirit would have to be caged, you would have to stop being your amazing, crazy, happy, helpful, gorgeous, talented, self. You couldn’t be Darci Mei Becks.” His voice is full of passion that I have never heard before, “Because everything about you makes me love you.”

I stare into his hazel eyes; I don’t know what to say to that. He’s almost 21 and I turn sixteen tomorrow, society would rip apart our relationship and turn him into some predator, I can’t let that happen.

I go to speak when Kyle leans forward and presses his mouth against mine, our lips move like they are doing a dance that has been rehearsed many times. All of my previous worries melt away with the rain that’s crashing to the ground.

Kyle pulls away and stares into my eyes. “Your eyes remind me of the ocean, wild and untamed one minute then calm and still the next but no matter what, the water is always beautiful.” Kyle wraps his arms around me.

“What are we going to do Kyle? We have 5 years in between us, enough for people to turn you into something you’re not.”  Kyle’s arms tighten protectively around me.

“I don’t know Darci, I wasn’t meant to tell you till you were eighteen.” For the first time ever, Kyle didn’t have a solution to the problem ahead of him.

“We have to tell everyone tomorrow” he frowns at me, “We are less likely to be judged by the people who know us best and then we have some people on our side rather than hiding it from them. They are our closest friends and family, this is the closest thing I have to family anymore and we both know we can trust them.” He keeps frowning but he knows I’m right.