Past Regrets

Chapter 2 The accident *a year later*

NIGHTMERES POV,
After a year and a half of being with Axl as a friend you start to develop feelings for him very quickly. he was sweet, kind, intelligent,wise (for a nine/ten year old), cute and funny at times. I still hadn't told him I liked him and at this point I never will...
~second recess~
I slipped through the gate and on to the street when the teacher turned his back.
"Night, what are you doing!" Axl whispered through the gate. I chuckled and turned to face him.
"Oh come on Axl, it's a ten dollar bill in the centre of the street on a school day, it's totally safe, nobody goes more than twenty four km per hour in a school zone!" I whispered back, Axl rolled his eyes and sighed as he climbed over the fence to meet me on the other side.
"Fine, but if I get run over I'm blaming you, and if I die its your fault!" He nudged me a bit as a joke before trotting out into the street and picking up the bill. He had just stood up straight when I heard the screeching of tires. I didn't have enough time to even say his name before it happened... The speeding car broke his legs in an instant, the crunch of his bones echoed as his screams filled the air as he was flung like a rag doll over the roof of the car. his screams were filled with pain and terror as he flew through the air. the all to soon, he came crashing down head first into the pavement. the pop of his neck silenced his screams but not those of his terrorized brother Gordon and the rest of the school yard. Axls blood splattered everywhere, it pooled around his mutilated body and soaked into the pavement below him. i didn't move, I couldn't even scream, but the tears were already streaming and I was shaking like a leaf. everything seemed to slow down as the car continued to speed on and all the screaming seemed to fade away until I felt a hand on my shoulder then it hit me like a tone of bricks. I ran over Axls body even though hands tried to grab hold of me and pull me back. I practically laid in a puddle of blood to reach him.it was still warm and sticky and as I looked into his eyes the life from them had long since faded away. I felt my heart sink further to into my chest as the false hope of Axl still (but barely) alive was demolished by a this new guilt filled reality. My heart pounded in my chest as I heard my name being called and some more hands tried to pull me away from Axl.
"Night, you need to stay away from his body, it could become a crime seen!" Tracy's voice came from behind me as her arms wrapped around my waist.
"No, just leave me alone! ... Axl please come back, please!" I placed a hand on Axls face as more tears streamed down my face.
"Get a your grimy hands of my brother you witch! You did this to him, you pushed him in to the road!" I heard an uproar of gasps behind me including my sisters. I felt rage bubbling up inside me and then under all the wight of the world came crashing down on top of me, an I snapped like a twig under someone's foot. I stood up slowly and turned around to see a teacher holding Gordon back away from the fence. my body was shaking so badly that I could hardly stand but I fought my body's need to faint just long enough to say this...
"I didn't push him into the street, but I may as well have, I sent him out here for something as stupid as a peace of paper, a fucking ten dollar bill, nothing compared to the worth of Axls life, I loved Axl, and if you knew me well enough you would know I'd trade places with him right now, Axl is the most beautiful being I have ever seen, he's smart, he's funny, he never broke a rule until now and it was because I told him that it would be safe! look where it got him, I am a worthless piece of dirt! I don't deserve to be on this earth, he does, he's more important than me, he should be here, not me! Not me..." I wavered in my place for a moment as black dots blurred my vision and the dead silence enfold me as I feel to the pavement. my ears rang for a few seconds before everything went black...