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Lost...little Prince

ahh... My head it's hearts a lot what happened, what am I doing in bed?  Where I'm I? I was supposed to be... Shit, my head it's hearting

" You woke up, how are you feeling? "
"Mom!" I burst into tears in her warm hug. Was that all just a dream, I wish it was but the reality came a second later
"I guess you alright " Mr. Laurence came
I wiped my tears away "Yeah" I paused a moment "What happened?" I questioned him nervously him
"Don't You remember anything that happened last day?" he asked
I started thinking " I went in and fought with those people...and I, wait KIM!!!
Ahhh my head you're strong Rose It's hearting never stop fighting KIM's voice, why can't I remember him saying this?
"Rose! Rose are you alright " my mom held me when I was almost losing it.
I rushed myself towards Mr. Laurence "What happened? Why can't I remember? Where's my friend " I questioned him
He remind quite what the hell that supposed to mean "Tell me now? " I shouted, he kept his silence
"Ok fine I will go and find out" I rushed out forcing my body to move I don't know why but my entire body felt heavy like a ton weighing on me
"No Rose you can't " my mom followed me "Rose this is not a time" Mr. Laurence tried to stop me
"What do you mean by that? " I questioned him
"You're friend, he died," he said
"shut the fuck up and move," I said what kind of bullshit his speaking
"Rose you shouldn't speak like that to someone who saved you," my mom said
"It doesn't matter, I don't have time for his nonsense I'm going to find my friend"
"I will take you there " He grabbed his car keys "Come get in," he said opening his car door. I got in angrily ignoring whatever nonsense he said I just need to find KIM as soon as possible.

He stopped the car in front of a funeral, I felt really angry and I don't know why my hands started shaking "Please stop doing this" I don't know if I can face the truth whatever it is " I'm not going in " I said
"You should " he got me out of the car, I froze the moment I saw KIM's photo. I just felt emotionless, my body was not moving I didn't even know I was breathing. Mr. Laurence held my hand strongly and looked at me with sad or pity I can't explain what kind of emotion he was expressing "You shouldn't send your friend without giving a proper goodbye "

"No... I can't " I said emotionlessly
"Rose... "
"Kevin " The moment I saw him my body started moving I ran towards Kevin and hugged him, A fountain of tears dropped. I started crying so hard. 

He was also crying and yanked me back hard "What the hell happened there ROSE! Why my friend is lying there? Tell me. " He shouted, holding my both shoulders and gripping so hard that was causing me so much pain and I could see his pain in that.
I just shook my head helplessly "I don't remember... I'm sorry " my head,   I felt dizzy.
Mr. Laurence held me back when I was tripping " This is not the right time, we will talk about everything later for now we should go back to your friend, come on don't make him wait longer "
We both nodded.
Everything happening in front of me feels so strange and vivid but the pain feels too hard to be real like a nightmare, the demons are laughing at my helplessness like my pain is what they need. 

The silence HUNTING me...
Physically my Body leaving that place but mentally I'm not... Not even there nor anywhere just Lost.