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Reasons...to...live

I ran away...I felt embarrassed and ashamed and I want to end this feeling, I want to stop this feeling so badly of being ashamed of things that I wasn't even aware of.

I went up, just a step behind to jump out of this building hoping to end these feelings, thinking why did I end up like this? why do I have to give up on things? I want to do a lot of things in my life but I never imagined I would be the one who takes this kind of decision.

If I end myself here will it be enough? Then what about the people who did this to me? will they get punished? how will I know If I end it here? Is it worth it??

This kind of question runs through my mind like a useless hope. don't do it...don't! more like excuses out of my fear but what should I do, it was the only way to escape from it. Isn't it ironic to search for an excuse to live

WHY SHOULD IT HAVE TO BE ONLY THIS WAY?

I BEEN WAY BETTER THAN THIS......

CAN'T I DO IT...CAN'T I GET THROUGH THIS.....CAN I GET THROUGH THIS?

"I WANT TO LIVE.....I WANT TO LIVE FOR BETTER"

If I can't do what is right for myself then who will? I want to know who did this to me and why. I want those people to get their punishment.

I stepped down and walked downstairs " Rosie, thank god! I found you, Are you alright? I was so worried about you ", my friend Lia said while hugging me.

That moment...the moment of realization I'm having suddenly hit me hard. I hugged her back and I started to explain everything. I was shivering and crying.

"Rosie! Listen to me, Calm down, and listen to me Everything that's happening now doesn't seem normal"

she said holding my hands tightly " I don't know what's going on but it was not only you" she said.

"What are you saying I don't understand?" I asked her.

"It's about the Nude pics those are not only yours, but it was also 'Aisha's' pics that got leaked all over the internet at first after that you showed up nude with this towel out of nowhere in the hallway"

"wait...Aishu, where is she now?" I interrupted her