'Friends for life' he said
'will u be my forever' he meant
How long did i pretend that i didn't know?
I hurt him so much that his expectations from me were already low..
I hate to admit that I purposely hurt this guy..
And the reason I had, was stupid - when I asked myself 'why'
that was the time when I experienced a love triangle that was incomplete..
that was the time when I knew how i wanted to be loved..
I wanted to be loved the same way he loves me..
but I didn't want him and i to be a 'we'..
I didn't want to be loved by him
I guess he knew,
so whenever he looked at me his expression was grim
Am i selfish?
But do i care?
My 'No' is hidden under my 'idk' layer
And if i think that way..
Then it's okay for me to be selfish right?
Right? No? Idk.
