I thought I already knew how to heal.
How to stay strong, how to feel.
But losing you has torn my skies,
As if the sun forgot to rise.
I would’ve given it all away,
To stay with you another day,
Even if love wasn’t mine to hold,
I’d choose the silence, choose the cold.
You tried to stay,
three times you tried,
Saved us from slipping,
swallowed your pride.
But this time, you left it up to me,
And now I feel lost,
as if I'm blind and cannot see.
I never feared the passing days,
As I believed a lot, in what we had made.
But now the distance cuts too deep,
I’m scared I’ve lost what I can no more keep.
I hope you saw that,
to you, i never lied.
I only hid the hurt inside.
I don’t regret the path I chose,
But still, this emptiness only grows,
What if you miss the light I bring?
What if you forget our little thing?
What if you don’t see what I try?
What if our memories fade and die?
I wonder if you feel this too,
The weight of all we couldn’t do.
I don’t want to live without your face,
Without knowing you,
Without our space.
I think of you, but keep it in,
Afraid to lose what we might win.
