Jariana: Best mistake

Justin 11: conceals

It... actually happened. For real.

It was hard to sleep, when I was teased. My whole body feels painful. Not just because of what happened but also because.. It didn't happen. I was sad but it was all for the better.

"So.. She likes me too." I massaged my temples. "I didn't know that." My head ached. "Why is this so complicated?!" I screamed and threw the glass on the floor. I regretted it after. Not because I broke a glass. I've done that before. But the carpet, it's messed up with juice. Just like my life. It's stained with Ariana. It's both a good and bad thing.

Good, because it's Ariana Grande. And she likes me. How lucky am I?

But it's bad because she has a boyfriend. I was never taught by my parents to destroy relationships. Ariana only has one flaw. She's in a relationship.

I woke up at around 11 AM. But I haven't eaten my breakfast. I looked at my reflection. Circles down my eyes. My lips were sore. Something caught my attention. Man, there was a hickey at my neck below my earlobe.

I tried washing it off but I guess that doesn't work. Well duh, stupid.

I needed to conceal it. Everyone knew last night that I went with Ariana going back to the hotel. She's the last girl that I've been with from last night. It would be obvious. "Now, I don't care if they'd think I'm gay. Nobody knows the real me expect for me and God." I told myself in front of the mirror. Then I added, "and my parents and friends."

I went to Nancy, Ariana's makeup artist. Ariana. Why can't we be together? I shook my thoughts away and knocked at the girls room.

It was opened by someone who surprised me. "Ariana."

Why is she here? "J-Justin?"

I looked at her. And she looks like she's fine. She looks beautiful as always. I cleared my throat. "Uh, is-is Nancy there?"

My hands made its way to the hickey area. She might see her masterpiece. Ariana looks like she too needed to cover some part of her body. She just stood still, not moving an inch. She cleared her throat too. "She's inside."

"Uh, okay." My other hand made its way at the back of my neck. Ariana looked at me again. I was about to go in when she too was about to go out. Our bodies almost touched. No. Justin. No.

So, I moved aside and made her go out first before I went in the room. I saw everyone inside looked at us weirdly.

I went to Nancy. "What was that?" She asked.

"What?"

She didn't speak for a moment. Then she just shook her head. "What can I do for you?"

I sighed. "Can I borrow your uh - concealer?"

She just stared at me. "What for?" She blinked slowly.

"Uhm, I'll take a pic. I'll send it to my mom." What a lame excuse.

Her eyebrow raised at me. "What's with concealers?" She ask and folded her arms on her chest. "It's with Ari."

"A-Ariana?" She also has hickey? Oh damn, maybe under her arm. I was too aggressive last night. I bit it.

"Yeah. She said she has blemishes or something which I don't think doesn't matter. She looks flawless. And she already put on make up early this morning." She shrugged.

"Well," I urgently need one. "Do you have an extra?"

She suspiciously eyed me before asking from other girls in the room. Good thing the other one has. They handed it to me. "Er, what's with your neck?"

I cursed in my head. I'm not ready with the questions. "Uhm, stiff neck." Not bad. "Thanks." I said and ran to my room.

I went directly to my bathroom, opened the concealer. "How to...?" I ask myself and experiment on it. I put some on my finger and applied it on my neck. "Sh!t, why isn't it working?!" I need patience.

I applied more and.. Not bad. The redness isn't obvious.

"There Justin." I pat myself.

Then there was the door bell. Oh no. What if that's Ariana? I looked at the peeping hole and I was relieved. I opened the door. "Scoot's calling." Frankie smiled. "Lunch together."

"Lunch?" I checked my watch and it says 11:53 AM. Wow. Time flies so fast. "Okay. I'll just get ready." I kindly closed the door and rushed to my closet. As much as I wanted to wear a turtle neck top, my swag would probably be destroyed. So I got my plain blue shirt, got my snapback and double concealed my hickey.

Then I went to the dining area. The whole Grande team was there. Except for Ariana. I saw Greg, "Hey, where's Ari?"

Greg's eyes found its way at my back. "There." he points at my back and I saw Ariana. She was wearing a simple Spongebob shirt and a black skirt. Stunning. That's the term.

Our eyes met for a few seconds, then she started walking to her brother.

I found myself sitting next to Greg's. A few minutes later, tray's of food were brought in. Scooter went to me. And he's not alone. He brought Ariana with him who looks like she's forced to smile. "There sit beside JB."

She sat beside me.

I wanted to say something. But what will I say? I was sure that she didn't wanna say anything. Maybe she's making up her mind. We were served with plates, utensils, and a glass of water/juice.

I looked at her. "Ariana." I wanted to say. It's so weird that the two of us like each other but we can't do anything about it. It's just that. Like.

"So." Scooter started. "Where do you guys wanna go after this?"

I glanced at Ariana. She just ate her food silently. "I think - I'm just gonna stay in my room the whole day?" Then I shrug. I still don't know.

I wanted to see her just glance at me. But she didn't. Scooter was called by someone. "For a while." Scooter excused himself.

I wanted to say something. But something's stopping me. So.. That's it? After all we've been through? Over reacting, that's me. I went closer to her. "Did you already talk to Sean?"

Ariana looked at me. "Does he need to know?" It was a mere whisper.

"It's not that..." I didn't know what to say. All I wanted to do was talk to her. And look what I made. I ended up making her mad. "Are you mad at me?" I just wanted to hear the answer.

She stopped playing with her fork and looked at an open space. Then she closed her eyes. "It's a different kind of madness I guess." She uttered.

What does she mean? I wanted to ask her. But then, Scoot made a toast. "Let us congratulate Ariana and Justin for having a successful concert." He raised his glass and we followed him. "Sadly, Justin is going back to L.A tomorrow. But Ariana's concert will still pursue."

I gulped at that. We're just gonna continue with our lives. That's it. After the toast, Ariana excused herself. "I'm not feeling well. I'm gonna go back to my room." Then she left instantly without saying any other word with anyone.

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