Jariana: Best mistake

Justin 20: Cuddle

It feels so good, having her next to me — not in a dream but in reality.

Ariana and I laid down on bed. We didn't do it. We just stayed like that, her hands on my chest, my arms around her waist. And we were just feeling each others breathing.

"Justin." She muttered.

I hummed a "hm?" And just waited for her to say anything.

"I'm a dog whisperer." I rose an eyebrow at her first sentence. "My favorite colors are very specific but they're all pastel because I love pastels. I love to swim and I love cuddling."

I couldn't stop myself from smiling.

"I love strawberries, they're my favorite flavor. I eat a lot. Uhm, I am in love with animals which are part of the sea."

I laughed and asked, "What is that?"

"We say we're close but I realized I never told you these things." She moved closer, grabbed my hand and she intertwined it with hers. "I hate it when I feel cold, so I snuggle next to someone."

"And that someone is me?"

She chuckled. "Well, it can be anyone."

"No, I can't allow that."

She sat up and looked at me. "What? And why is that?"

"Because.." I grab her in my arms and she falls back like a little baby on my chest. "You simply can't."

Then we were just in each others arms.

"I wish I can hug you like this all the time." Her cheeks were both pressed by my body and arm making her sound like a kid. "I want to stay like this." Her tone broke my heart. "I'm not pressuring you."

"I know." I gave a small smile. "I'm sorry."

"For what?"

I sighed. "For everything."

She snuggled her head on my underarm. That made me laugh a little. "I get it." Her words were muffled. Then she looked up at me again. "I can wait."

"I feel so useless right now." I placed my palm on my face.

"Why? You're not." She pulled my hands away.

"But I am." I wanted to get mad.. At myself. "I don't want you to wait Ariana." I caressed her cheeks. "I want to give my best. You deserve to be loved, completely."

I sat up and she did too.

"Just — I know that you can wait for me. I'm sorry I can't just say it to her in an instant. I don't want to hurt her." I showed her my everything. I felt transparent, talking to her about this. "I also loved Hailey." I caressed her arms. "I want you to understand."

"And I do, Justin. I understand."

I smiled. "Thank you."

I pulled her and then squeezed her in a very tight hug.

Suddenly...

"Oh sorry baby sis. I think I left my bracelet here."

That made us both frozen on the spot.

"Sh*t." Ariana whispered.

"Baby sis?" Frankie asked from outside.

"Get in the closet." Ariana told me and I didn't say any word. I swiftly got to the closet and made myself comfortable in there. "Uh, yes Frankie? I just woke up sorry." I heard her say.