Char&Nicky

If you kiss a boy, I'm gonna shoot you dead

TW: abuse and slurs
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Ben's POV:

"Son, come with us", my dad commands. I swear to God, I'll kill Sanjai for joking like this. All of my friends are quiet and I know I am in trouble. So, I quietly obey. Maybe if I don't make eye contact and I hold my gaze on the ground, he will calm down. He puts his hand on my back, just like any other father would, but this wasn't a warm embrace. He was forcing me away from my friends back to our house. A cold sweat runs down my spine. I can't even look at our bland front door, let alone step trough them. "Come on", dad says seemingly innocent, but I know what's comming next. I want to run, I want to scream and go somewhere, anywhere but here. Still, I go inside, instead screaming from within.

My dad then tells mum to go prepare the dinner while he has a talk with me. I'm looking at him from the hall, feeling like my heart will explode. He then pulls out a chair for me from under our common room table: "Sit. Let's have a talk".
I don't want to be here, I most certanly don't want to have 'a talk' but I still comply. He's standing over me, his arms crossed and cold eyes shooting at me.

"Do you know what this is about?"

"I... don't know."

"You really don't know?"

"I... no..."

"You are quite brave to lie to me."

"I..."

He punches his palm right next to me on the table as hard as he can.
"ANSWER ME DAMNIT"

A whisper is the only thing that comes out of my mouth.
"I don't know."

"He doesn't know", my dad stands up straight, "how arrogant of him."

I hate feeling this weak. I know if I say anything, it will only get worse. And if I don't, it's uncertian what's going to happen next.

"As if his friend didn't just confess his sins."

"I-"

He bends over the table, staring menacingly at me. His gaze is so cold, I am completely frozen.
"Do you know what I'm talking about?"

"...Yes."

"Oh, so you do know what this is about then. You just like to disrespect your old man."

"Dad, I swear it was only a joke-"

"ONLY A JOKE MY ASS!"

He pulls the chair I'm sitting in by the handles and turns it so that I'm facing him. He then gets in my face as if he's going to threaten me.

"Son, if you are not going to be honest with me there is no reason for us to talk, right? We could use other methods. We would rather talk it out than use them, don't you think?"

All curled up in my seat, eyes wide, filled with fear, I nod.

"So, if I go asking around, I won't find anything out?"

My mouth is glued shut.

"ANSWER ME!"
He shakes my chair. Petrified, I barely search for words.

"You won't find anything, I promise."

He says nothing. Just stands up letting the chair go. For a second I feel like I escaped death. Still looking from above with his arms crossed he says: "If I ever find out you've been kissing boys, I'll end your life. No son of mine will be a homo".

A tear forms in the corner of my eye as I sit there hunched over. I can't make myself look anywhere besides the ground.

"Come on, don't be a pussy."

My face hardens.

"Got to your room."

With my gaze still on the ground, I wait a minute before I stand up and leave. My whole body is burning with anger. It's hard to hold it in. Helplessness is only fueling it. When I finally enter my room, I swing my hand hard and knock down everything from my shielf to the ground. When the last thing drops to the floor, so do I. Nothing is real right now, not even myself.

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Writer's note

This scene is not meant to justify Ben's behavior towards Charlie. It is only an explanation as to why he is the way he is and serves as a depiction of discrimination and violence many LGBTQ+ members expirience.
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