my public journal

5sos & tyler

10/18/23

okay so i'm back with another update about tyler 😍

sooo SO much things happened today at school y'all aren't ready for this.

okay so basically during lunch me and one of my friends meet up. we sit at different tables but we like walking around and looking for our crushes cause that's what u gotta do at lunch yk?

so she meets up with me and she's like

"you might wanna check (insert instagram username here) because he's on there.

and the way my jaw dropped, i grabbed my phone and looked up the username and sure enough i saw sooo many pictures of him on a instagram page.

the only reason why he was posted on a page was because yk how yesterday i said that he was learning about what firefighters do? well these people took picture of him and others and so now i have pictures i can look at lmao. (he's so fine)

okay so back to me and my friend-

so i get up and me and her start walking down the cafeteria and we head to where the front office is.

tyler sits across from the office on these chairs and me and my friends guy friends hangout there too.

but as we met up with our guy friends, tyler wasn't there 😑 i was so sad lmfao.

but anyways my friend's crush is one of the guys in our friend group so we just stayed and chit-chatted there for the rest of lunch lol, it was chill.

so after lunch me and my friend go and retrieve our backpacks that we left at our different tables and hen met back up.

we start heading to class and we meet up with another on of our friends and right before we walk in i realized that i forgot my water bottle.

so me and my two friends turn around and we start walking back and as i turn the corner, we see tyler walking towards us.

and as we pass by him he doesn't look at me once, he doesn't look at me twice, but THREE TIMES GUYS.

like he did a triple take at me, like he's tryna fuck😝

but anyways we had a moment and the way me and my friends all gasped at each other after he was out of ear shot lmfaoo.

we act like middle schoolers but whatever, it's fun being delulu and having a crush

so flash forward to my econ class

(let me just say shout out to my teacher because if he didn't let us out two minutes early in his class, i would never be able to see tyler at the end of the day. because i'm in C hall and he's in E hall and the hall i'm in is like in the back of the school and tyler's hall is literally so close to the front doors.)

okay so anyway, after our teacher lets us go i literally bolt out my damn class so i don't miss him and usually i see tyler but can never talk to him cause he be sleepwalking, u guys already know this lol.

but yeah so this time i didn't wait for him i just kept walking but i was walking slow cause i still wanted to at least get a glance at him.

my guy friends are behind me and we just end up walking together and when we get outside, i see tyler and he turns his head slightly and he looks at me.

and i was just like fuck it ima go talk to him.

so i started walking and tyler slowed down, like he wanted me to talk to him cause this man be zooming to get on his bus lmao. but he slowed his pace down so fast and i immediately started talking to him and it was so easy.

i asked him how the firefighter thing went and he was like

"it was really fun, i got to use the fire hose."

and i was look "that's very cool." and yada yada yada.

he's telling me what he did as if i wasn't watching him the whole damn time yesterday lmfao 🤣

but anyways ways we made small talk and i asked him if he took the bus and he was like "yeah."

and i said that i walked home and he asked me if i lived around our school and i was like "yeah, it's like a fifteen minute walk." etc.

anyways the point is, this was like a full conversation and it was so easy to talk to him. i know i keep bringing this up but the way he slowed down his pace so i could catch up to him and talk to him is like crazy cause when i tell you he speed walks to his bus, that's what he does everyday. i think he does that to get a good spot lol, which is fair.

so after he said by to me he got on his bus and i started walking. then my guy friend catches up to me and tells me that tyler kept looking at me.

i didn't know that because i was looking down the whole time lmao. but like it's such a great feeling when your friends tell you that your crush is looking at you.

and also not to mention, my guy friends said that he thinks tyler likes me. i mean he's a guy and i should probably take his advice because this is coming from a guy.

he was like "no guy is going to look at a girl like that if he didn't like her."

and like he has a point and i want to believe this but there's just this thought in the back of my head wondering if tyler's just being nice to me.

but like tyler knows i think he's attractive, and hell he might even know i like him.

and like if you were in his position, if you liked someone you wouldn't want to walk so fast and get away from them, you'd want to slow down so you can walk beside them yk?

and liked he'd be trying to avoid me yk? but he doesn't avoid me so like that makes me think that maybe there is a chance he does like me.

anyways, that's what happened today with my crush's crush 😝

i'm kinda tired i was supposed to go to sleep like 40 minutes ago but i decided to write in this online journal while listening to 5sos.

but i gotta update the few people who will actually read this and actually care lmao. but it's also mostly for me to look back on when i'm like 25.

also tyler LOVES cats just as much as i do and i saw a cat today and sent him a picture of it.

i think it's such a green flag when guys like cats, just saying.

okay bye i'm off to bed 😝