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i sware he's paying games

9/29/24

bro when i got to writing class today, i thought tyler dropped out of the class because he was like ten minutes late after the bell 😭.

i was trying to make myself feel better and say that maybe he was just sick or something, anything to make myself not be sad lmfao. but no i forgot that this man is like known for coming to class like 30 minutes late. my guy friends last year said that during first period he didn't come in for the first 30 minutes of class.

i hope he doesn't do that for my class because i want all the time in the world to see him. like bruh get to class we only share one 🙄.

okay let's get into what happened today. so basically i moved seats because i didn't want to sit alone. i'm sitting by a new girl let's call her (B) she's so sweet & she's also in my advisory class. i told her she can sit with me and my friend during advisory tomorrow and she agreed 😁. i also got her cookies today from the student store hehe.

anyways, when tyler walked in late he sat in a different spot because his spot from last time was taken because this dude decided to show up late to class 💀. so he sat with some guys, but his back was facing me. he was sitting to the left of me further up, i had a clear view of him.

well, he looked back at me during silent reading. it was kinda embarrassing cause i was already looking at me and he turned around but i didn't break eye contact. also like i can tell when he looks at me because it's so obvious. every time he looked back he faced towards me and he held eye contact with me before facing back forward. he did this 7 freaking times throughout the class period, like what 🧍🏼‍♀️. and the only logical explanation for him doing that is to maybe check the time? but then again, the clock is like high on the wall behind me by the door and he wasn't looking up. he was looking straight at me and kept doing it.

i've been listening to foolish one by taylor swift and i'm actually going to crash out out because that song is literally me. i hate how i relate to it because i don't want to hear the lyrics but i need to.

like wdym "i'll get your longing glances, but she'll get your ring." ?????

okay i'm gonna go watch some more tiktoks and be delusional. i have math first period tomorrow ugh whatevs.

i love my teacher because she's my advisor my teacher and she's amazing 🫶🏻

i'll update y'all maybe tomorrow or in a few days, byeee 🌟