I went upstairs and sat on my bed. I searched for my bag and took out scheldue.
- Maths, PE, art, biology, and english. Great way to die. - I throw my bag in the corner
I was stressed and worried because I need to go to school. Worst things in school? Probably exams because I get really anxious over them and I start to cry when I'm upset, then we have all these idiots that hate me. It doesn't feel nice walking in the hall and being afraid to hear someone calling you mean names, it doesn't feel nice being afraid somebody's going to beat you up if you say something. I haven't noticed that Alex said nothing for my scars. I mean, she probably saw them, but people usually make fun of them. I had no idea what to do, I just sat on my bed and looked outside.
She hates you.
No, she saved me.
Just because she didn't want to see somebody commiting suicide, she hates you
Why did we kiss then?
So she makes you feel better, there's nothing between you two.
I was fighting with my little voice again. What if that's true? What if she actually hates me? I wanted to find out, but I can only wait for tomorrow. I felt lonely without her. She was the one that saved my life. Who knows what would happen if she didn't do it? Guys would probably be broken, I had no idea what would happen to Alex. Overthinking triggered my anxiety attacks, and I needed to distract myself so I went downstairs to find Vic. He was sitting on the couch and reading some book.
- Hey, Vic. - I say
- Hm? - he looks up
- Uhm... About my therapist, have you made an appointment yet?
- Yeah, you should visit your therapist in two days, you okay with that?- he goes to kitchen and takes cup of coffee
I just nod my head and sit on the couch.
- So, where's Kellin? - I smirk
- He went home. - Vic takes coffee and sits next to me - Where's your girlfriend?
- Vic, we're not together. - I laugh
I had no idea if we were together or not. I mean, she called me her girlfriend, that means that we're together? That shit was confusing me.
- Yeah, right. - he laughs
- I'll shower and get ready for tomorrow. - I say and go upstairs
I was done with my shower after 30 minutes. I know, it takes me a lot of time to shower. I usually sit in my bathtub and think about life. It sounds weird, but I make big choices in my bathroom. I was walking around the hall in my towel. I wanted to ask Vic if he can make me some food, but I'm really lazy, so I'll rather starve. I didn't have TV in my room, so I was really bored, I only had Vic's old phone. I found some bra and panties and decided to get dressed. We didn't have neighbours, there was only one empty house acroos the street, that meant no one can see me getting dressed. I didn't put the curtains on, I just started to get dressed. After I put my panties on, I heard knock on the window. I look at it. Guess who was knocking on it.
- Alex! - I scream
I didn't have my bra on, and now she saw something that she wasn't suposed to. I quickly wrap a towel around me and open the window.
- That was nice. - she laughs
I call her to come in, and we both sit on the bed. I told her to turn around while I'm getting dressed. I found some over sized shirt and put it on.
- How did you climb up? - I ask
- Fuck that. - she says, I could tell she was sad, I could tell it by the way she talked
- Come on, tell me what happened. - I put my head on her shoulder
She sighs and hugs me.
- I came out to my dad and he kicked me and said I should never come home if I decide to live like that. - she cries on my shoulder
- That's horrible. - I hug her tigher
I wipe her tears and kiss her cheek - You can sleep here tonight
- Really? - she looks at me, I can see hapiness in her eyes
I nod my head and smile - We need to make sure Vic doesn't see you
She nods her head, and I quickly leave to find some pillows and blankets for her. I went downstairs to find pillow and blanket because I remember I saw one blanket on the couch. I looked around me, no one was here. I walked in the living room and saw Mike sitting on the couch. I quickly take pillow and blanket, hoping Mike won't ask me why I need them.
- Ellie. - he says, my heart stopped after that
- Yeah? - I ask with shakily voice
- You're taking a bus to school tomorrow, or?
- Uhm, probably. - I say and run upstairs
Alex was sitting on the window, she was watching stars.
- Thank you. - she says as I hand her blanket and pillow
I nod my head and smile.
- I can give you some clothes for school tomorrow. - I sit next to her - What about your books?
- That would be great, thank you. I left textbooks in my locker, I'll just pick them up in school.
I've just remembered I need to find place for her to sleep. I can't let her sleep on my floor, right?
- You can sleep in my bed, it's big enough. - I say with shakily voice
I was afraid she'll think I'm weird or something. What if she'll think I'm going too far? I mean, I'm just giving her a place to sleep, nothing more.
- Sure. - she smiles
I place her pillow next to mine, we slowly get in my bed.
- Uhm, goodnight, Ellie. - she whispers and kisses my cheek.
- Night, Alex.
It was kinda weird sleeping next to her, but I felt... I don't know, I felt loved? She could make my day just by smiling. I fell asleep pretty soon.
- Ellie! Ellie wake up! - I heard someone yelling
I slowly open my eyes and see Tony standing next to me and yelling my name.
- Come on! House is on fire! - he grabs my hand and pulls me out of bed
Alex wasn't next to me, and I saw some fire near my bathroom.
- Where are the others? - I yell while running downstairs
He didn't answer, he pulled my hand and I ran even faster. It was hard to breathe, there was smoke everywhere. Whole kitchen was on fire, it looked like we were in hell, not in our house. We finally got downstairs. There wasn't any fire at the doors, but everything behind us was on fire already. It was really hot in here, it was even harder to breathe as time was passing.
- Run! Run out! - Tony yells and stops
I run out, I nearly got burned because the couch next to me was on fire. Guys were standing outside. Vic hugs me and we step back. Jaime was on his phone, he was probably calling 911.
- Where's Alex? - I ask
- She was in bathroom, Tony is trying to get her. - Vic answers
- What!? He's going to die! - I yell punching Vic in his shoulder.
Front doors were on fire soon. There was no way they'll get out.
- Vic! They're going to die! - I keep yelling
I was freaked out, no one could save them, they were probably dead already. I still had some hope I'll see them coming out the doors.
- Yeah, they will die. Everything you love dies. Just like your parents. - he said, his voice was calm, he didn't even care about Tony and Alex
- What are you talking about? - I ask with shakily voice
He smiles and takes something out of his pocket.
- You love yourself. Everything you love needs to die. - he points something at me
Gun. He was pointing a gun at my face.
***Another shitty chapter is here! Sorry if this one was awful xc***
