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136. The Sweet Life 🍯

In a year, my entire like changed for the better. I spent many years before that forcing a dark cloud over my head, because I thought there was nothing else for me. So many people suffer thinking life is a curse and that their existence is a mistake. No matter how you got to that dark place, the good thing is that you don't have to stay there.

That's not to say that every day is going to be sunshine and without problems. I believe that each day is going to be filled with ups and downs. The difference between the Jamie I was before and the Jamie that I am now is that I no longer fear what's to come. All glory belongs to God, because he opened my heart and my mind. I don't have to go through living in this world alone. Knowing Him is the confidence I have today.

I'm thankful for A.B., too! Honestly, A.B. is an amazing person and boyfriend. I know he'll be a great husband and dad, too. Whether we make it to marriage or not, I'll always be glad that he came into my life when he did. God knows His creation needs meaningful interactions, genuine connections, and loving relationships. Unfortunately, there's not a lot of people like A.B. That man is rooted in being who God called him to be. I pray that everyone on this earth has someone in their life like A.B. - a relative, a friend, or a spouse. The best relationship to have is one with Yahuah - God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob; the God of Yahusha HaMashiah (Jesus Christ). 🙌

NOTE: Yahuah and Yahusha are their names in Hebrew.

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So what now? Other than watching celebrities accept my music awards on my behalf and getting random phone calls from my cousin Monica, I continue to grow and learn more about God which in return helps me to learn how to operate in this world. I no longer feel the need to impress or please others. Not to say, I don't struggle, but I'm much happier knowing that I'm only obligated to please one - God! I've definitely matured in my faith. I'm not on a preacher's level, but when I'm having a conversation about God, no matter who it is, I can't help but to engage.

How's everyone else? My parents are enjoying their time together. They just got back from Italy, and they're planning to rent an RV and travel through the States. Hopefully, they'll be back in town for the family reunion that's coming this summer. I can't wait to see Uncle Nors! Monica is gonna be mad she missed it. Well, she tells me she won't be able to attend, but I know that woman too well. She's going to show up to surprise us all.

Zell and Cathy Rivers adore her. I hear they often ask about me. I do think about my time spent living in their home. Interesting times, indeed, but I don't want to go back.

Zeke's reality talent show The Power House is now casting for a third season. Zack has a new girlfriend, and I hope it works out. Bridgette, Warren, and Maximo have either called or text me to see how I've been. I missed them so much.

Deonte and his group are everywhere; especially, after gaining more fans from their collab with the boyband AOI. The CRU is currently promoting their tour for the end of the year. Deonte called me the other day to join them, but I declined. He said he'd call again when the tour got closer, and I told him I'd still decline. Deonte has become one of my best friends from the music industry, and I know it will remain that way. Cha-Cha and Deana text me a few times to see how I am, and I do the same - check on them. They are definitely the sisters I've always wanted. I heard Cash and their mom is doing well, too.

Larry is a megastar. He's releasing his album in August, and he has two number one songs and his features on other artists' records are adding to his list of hits. He recently texted me, asking if I'll sing on another one of his songs, but I declined. Then, he said I owed him one more song. He was definitely becoming a little brother I didn't ask for, but I really appreciate him.