Perseverance (Book 2 of Jade and Nika)

Chapter 17: Warming up

Jade

I wish I could say that this weekend in Storrs, Connecticut was amazing, but I can't. I knew that me and Nika couldn't go public with our relationship and we had to pretend the love triangle was real. I just didn't know that there would be so much arguing out of the public eye. Don't get me wrong they argue in public too.

I came here this weekend so I could spend time with Nika, but it's hard when you are in the middle of a fake love triangle. Sky also wants to hang out and make sure that the public thinks that I have chosen Nika already. So they are literally arguing over me. Honestly it's starting to feel like a real love triangle and I hate it. I don't know why anyone would want to be fought over like this.

After opening night last night, We ended up going back to the dorm and watching a movie. Which of course Sky talked her way into coming too. Before we even left to go to the dorm they fought over who I was going to ride with, but I told them that I would just ride with Azzi, so it doesn't look like I have a favorite.

When we got to the dorm, I pulled Nika aside and told her to not let Sky get under her skin. I also reassured her that she is the only one who I want to be with. So we kissed and made up before heading into the common area to watch a movie. Which of course started another argument over who I was going to sit with. I ended up sitting in the middle of the couch with Sky on one side and Nika on the other.

It was honestly the most uncomfortable feeling I've had in a while. I started to feel trapped and it was suffocating me. It's starting to feel like my fake relationship with Matt. And just like the relationship with Matt I am starting to feel overwhelmed and it hasn't even been twenty four hours yet.

I finally couldn't take it anymore, and I told everyone that I will be back. I stood up and walked to the bathroom and shut the door. I feel like I am going to have a mental breakdown. I heard the knock on the door. I knew it was Nika. I tried to pull myself together as much as I could and told her that I am okay and that I will be out in a little while. But I knew it wasn't that convincing.

The door opened, but it wasn't Nika it was Hana.

Hana- I knew that you probably thought I was Nika, but I told her that I would come check on you instead. Because I knew Sky was going to argue with her about it, and I don't want to hear it. Plus I think that it was the main reason you had to leave.

You know me so well.

Hana noticed that I was shaking and I wasn't speaking as clearly as I usually do, and that's when she knew that I was having another panic attack.

She came up to me and hugged me as tightly as she could and she tried to calm me down as much as possible.

I knew that we have been in here for a while because we heard another knock on the door.

Paige- Is everything okay in there? Because we are all starting to get worried. Plus I am the one knocking because they are starting to argue again.

Hana- Just come in here Paige.

When she walked in she sees Hana hugging me while I probably look like a ball of anxiety.

Paige- What's going on?

Hana- She is just having a panic attack, and I am trying to calm her down.

Paige- What can I do?

Hana- Stand on the opposite side of her and hug her. The physical contact will help calm her nerves.

So Paige walks over and hugs me. I started to slow my breathing down, and then I started to stop trembling. Which means I also stopped sweating. We stayed like that until I was back to normal.